I have been growing my viking beard for a few months, everyone compliments me on it. I originally grew it out of depression but now I like it. So strange, I just wanted to look different, apart from the masses and now people look at me like i have courage or something, like i know something they don’t. Well I don’t. They think I’m happy and unique when really i am angry and depressed. I wanted to be left alone but now people want to talk to me. No one impressive talks to me. I am very dissatisfied with life. I feel like no one is worth my time, i know i sound egotistical, but when you have had to overcome many situations people know nothing about, what am i supposed to feel. I am to the point now that i want to feel pain just to feel something.