Finished

I’m done with this shit, I’m done crying because of how they view me, I’m done hiding from the mirror because i don’t want to see myself, I’m done living up to their expectations, I’m done thinking of the people who killed themselves.

I’m sick of it all, I hate being afraid, I hate being in a dark place, I hate hiding from the world because i thought I couldn’t deal with it. I’m sick of people wondering why I don’t date, because I don’t want too, I’m sick of people asking if I’m lesbian (nothings wrong with it) I just have no attraction to any human. I don’t do drugs, I don’t plan on it, I can’t drink, I can’t take you. I’m not lesbian, gay, or a guy, I’m not fat, I’m not stupid, I’m not a loser, I’m not a cutter (anymore), I’m not anorexic (never was), I’m not a bad friend, I’m not fine, but at the same time I’m not your punching bag, I’m not where you go to make yourself feel better, and I won’t let you get to me. I’m not afraid, I’m done being afraid, I’m done fearing someone weaker than me, I’m done with you. I’m done with my blade, I’m done with assholes, and I’m finished with them.

They told me I was fat, so what. They told me I look like I’m on something, what do you know. They told me to go die, maybe I tried. However it’s not going to change, It’s not going to go away, I don’t want to leave so that someone else will suffer what I have. So today I marched up to the girls and boys, looked them in the eyes and said thanks.

I was once weak, they fed off me, I’m done being depressed, I’m done thinking about the ways I could die, I’m done. I’m tired, I’m sad, and I don’t want to feel this way anymore. So here is where I say, I’m finished.

I’m stronger, stronger than them, I’m alive, and I plan to stay that way, I am fine, and that’s not a lie.

I am finally finished, I can finally smile, I can finally smile and mean it.

I’m finally finished, finished with all of it, I’m finally free 🙂    XD