i dont know what i want. no one cares at all. im not even all that pretty, which proves im not loved just used. how many times am i ganna try suicide til i succeed? probably countless cuz i obviously suck at trying. my family hates me..thats not even a question..they really do. i want someone to listen to me. and when i say im upset to actually listen not ignore me cuz it upsets them. i want someone who will stay by my side no matter what happens. cuz i need them more then they know. my life was getting better now its spiraling outa control again! i want a person who will love me and not use me as a sex doll.
i want parents that will state my rights rather then wrongs. i already know what those are. i dont know what my parents are proud of? i want parents who can control their own damn children not just watch me and what im doing? why should you care what im up too? too you its probably nothing good. so why waste time just upsetting yourself.
i want a sister who i can laugh and have fun with not wake up too with my heart pounding fast and my body shaking every time i come out of my room cuz im terrified how she will talk to/or look at me. (I HATE CRUELTY WHAT EVER HAPPENED WITH JUST BEING FRIENDLY?? ONE BAD LOOK AND IM PISSED AT YOU)
i want a mom who’s life isnt absorbed in her phone..i recall her having a basic phone for several years, losing it not using it never charging it. now u divorce dad get a smartphone and its ur lifeline. sure i love my phone too and i use it all the time but it doesnt make me ignore people. i want a mom who doesnt call me fat just cuz u work out. i know u have secrets so im sure u suddenly dying to be skinny has something to show for it.
people really shouldnt mess with me. its not a good thing cuz i will get back at you. i will one day get back at my family for everything they have done. my words actually effect people easily the way i say things ask all my exes..as well as physically im not nice when ur not looking i can grab u by the arm and throw u down i hold u tightly against me and i shake u while cursing ur name as well im screaming in ur ear. i have gone after people with knives and jammed a door with one. i can be a little terrorist. but only when you deserve it.
just like my family.