Things keep on getting worse for me, I really… I really just want to die, and I don’t see anything for me in this life. I really don’t, I don’t see anything happening for me… I know if I go to jump right now, off my 14th floor balcony there will be no one to stop me… I guess the main reason why I haven’t done it yet, because I want to feel needed or wanted, or maybe a reason to live for and I don’t have any reason to live for. Â I just want to die badly, I really do. I can’t have a pet, I can’t eat because my family is too poor to afford food, I can’t do the things I like because it costs money. I can’t get a job because in my state they don’t hire kids my age, because they don’t give a fuck about family problems out there… I need money, I really do, but there is no way of getting it at my age. My whole entire family doesn’t care about me and is completely fucking selfish. No one ever fucking pays attention to what is happening to my family. I want to ask my rich grandfather for money, but my uncle JUST passed away and it is too soon to even talk about money… I just really want things to get better, NOW. I feel like if I would just fucking die everything would be better, I can part with the things I have while I’m alive because those are the ONLY things I HAVE.
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I…I’m so sorry… 🙁 I know I’m male and 22, but…I’m not a pedophile or anything, and…I really wish I could hug you and make you feel better 🙁 You are wanted as a friend by at least me.
Look, I read your 3 posts and you’re amazing. I can’t believe you’ve dealt with all that, it’s insane. You haven’t done anything wrong either so don’t punish yourself for what has happened. Other people have just repetitively hurt you and I feel so bad for you. You seem to have always made the best of it though and if you’re currently in the US you’re almost working age. I really think you should get away from everyone somehow though, at least before deciding on suicide. Look at your options first. I forgot who it was because I have a terrible memory for names, but maybe your Canadian relative can help you, he seemed nice. I really hope things get better.