My name is Elora Schrader. I am thirteen years old, and I was hospitalized last March for an overdose of prescription drugs. My parents are druggies and drunks, and I beg for them to notice me, but nobody listens and nobody hears me cry. Because, in the here and now, nobody cares about anyone but themselves.
I have deconstructed a pencil sharpener, removing the blade. it is 10:35 PM. I will not do anything until 11:00. I hope that I will see or hear, something, anything to change my mind. I don’t WANT to do this again, but it is the only solution. Not just to this temporary problem, but to all problems. Forever.
Love, Zero
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If you’re looking for a sign to not do it, THIS IS IT. Don’t do it please. Please. We’re the same age. I can relate to you. I’ve done everything before. There are others out there like me who are willing to hear you out. No matter what happens, I want you to stay strong. You deserve to have a happy life as much as anyone else. Don’t do anything self harming please. I’ve been there. I’m still there. But If I can’t help myself, I want to at least help someone else. I care. I can hear your silent screams for help. Please stay and keep your heart beating.
Can you wait until 11am? I just found this place, and it’s the first place I’ve found anywhere were someone gets me. If there’s hope for you, maybe there is hope for me. If you are worth it, maybe I’m worth it, too. There’s got to be another way for both I’d us.
I apologize for having lost track of time. I am still here. I will wait until 11:11AM, to do anything. I just need a friend right now. Skype me: sixsixsticks Please, I am so lonely and so sad. I know I need help, but I can’t do this right now.
Your so young at 13! I know it seems like you will never get out of your home but keep hope. I’m 18 now and I used to be in a very similar situation to you. My mother did drugs and had several mental disorders and my father hated me. But the point is at 16 I did get out! I got tired of all the shit so I left. You can leave! I know I don’t have much room to talk because I am very suicidal but your only 13! The same age as my little cousin and that bothers me so please wait!
When I was a little older than you, I put every energy, my all into getting out from my mother. The screaming, yelling, telling me I was a miserable nothing. I took every course school offered that might lead to the most meanial job. Bookkeeping, typing, etc. etc. until I could ean a living and be free of her abuse. It worked kind of. I got free from her, but still not doing so well on choosing people who are good for me. One step at a time. Darn this latest guy makes me feel like trash, that no one else will ever like me. I sound like I’m young, but I’m not and still going through this. I hope you get away from your parents, but in a safe way. This probably doesn’t help, but it’s all I got. You have the time to make good choices. You have the power to make a plan to get away even if it takes time. Make a plan to live, not to die. Show everyone how much you are worth. Solidarity?
I am worth something only to one person, but what is one person vs. the world? I love you all, and I love the support you are trying to give me. Thank you.
The whole world doesn’t matter your world matters! If your world means only one person thinks your worth it then your one up!
I will wait until tomorrow at 10:35PM. I will then post my final decision on this matter. I love you all.
Thank you! You are me. If you can wait, i can wait to smell those sweet exhaust fumes. Please last this out with me. My cat is sitting across my face purring up a storm. But it’s not the same as a person as much as I love these feline buddies. I’ve got a trust fund set up for them. They’ll learn to live again. People think I’m nothing. Or people think I’ve got the world. I feel like I’m nothing without a man’s loyalty. Pretty pathetic, huh? But I remember when I just wanted my mother’s loyalty. I’ll be back here before your deadline. Please make a pact with me to live. It will take every ounce of courage we have. And I’ll figure out how to Skype if you want an old friend like me-lol.0
If you are worth something to one person , grab on and hold for dear life!!!
It’s so much more than many of us have.
Whatever you do please don’t cut your wrists. It won’t kill you and you’ll have nasty scars and possibly damage your hand function.
I have decided, with Lost Margaret, that if we can do this together, we will be okay. If you’re willing Lost Margaret, we can skype, or email, or whatever. If things go well, I can give you my number. I want to try this, this world, one more time. Thank you, lovely strangers, for your support.
I’m really glad you are hanging in there. I’m dragging myself to work although I’d rather pull the covers over my head and hide. Faking it is so exhausting. I’ll be back when I can. We only have to make it today.
One day at a time.
Don’t give up, because there is a kinder world out there, you’ll escape your parents someday and when you do try to look on the world in the best light you can