I’m a 14 year old guy.
These are some of the reasons I think I should commit suicide.
I was at a good friend’s house. He walked down the hall. I thought to use the restroom. He came back with a shotgun. He told me what a worthless son of a ***** I was and that he was going to kill me. He pressed the gun against the side of my head. Then pulled it back and looking frustrated with himself for not following through, punched me. I layed there while he yelled at me and told me why he hated me until my parents got there and I ran to their car. I never talked to him again.
I did see one of his other friends I didn’t really know though. I saw him once I pryed his hands off my neck and my vision cleared up. Then he stabbed me with some sort of needle. I don’t remember anything else.
If cancer is the slightest bit genetic, then I’m screwed.
Addiction also runs in the family.
I always feel like a social failure. What makes it worse is the people I know don’t even know I cut and again, we have a family history of divorce. So I never feel like my relationships are safe.
There’s also my last relationship. I though I loved this girl. I waited a year to date her. She was popular and for very good reasons. I told her everything and then she left. It’s complicated why, but it was basically just more bad luck for me. I don’t know if I’m capable of having any level of relationship anymore. I don’t think I could handle the stress again.
Did I mention my family is always in some sort of argument? My parents are basically sending my sister to live with these assholes they know in another state for the summer because they hate her, but she’s glad to go.
There’s other stuff too, but that covers most of it. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but currently I fall in and out of extreme depression and cut myself. I’m losing motivation to live because no one cares about me and I don’t think anyone will ever want to. With all the random shit that happens to me I have no reason to be happy. The other day a tree nearly fell on me. It would have killed me. Too bad it didn’t. That’s a typical example of a day in my life and now that the girl I loved is gone I have no one to help me cope and things just keep getting worse.
What should i do?
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You should find someone to talk to and help you cope with your problems. I care. Don’t do it please. You are amazing and you can make it through. You have a lot to live for. If you ever need anything, I’m here to listen and help in any way possible.
You need to do what you think is best for you. I don’t know how old you are but that is terrible regardless and if you wanna talk we can talk. Cancer runs in the women in my family so I’m screwed too and with the addiction yeah it can run in the family I am an addict and so is my mother I hate it but It could be worse (im clean now). If you wanna talk just let me know.
K i’m stupid your age is at the start of this, so your 14 there is options for you. They have shelters for teens, foster care, lots of stuff. You just have to want it bad enough and go for it.
Listen, we can skype, text, message, email, whatever it is. Please don’t take your own life. We can make it through together.
I appreciate the advice and knowing some options. It made me feel better about my situation although I still feel suckish as a person. My email is cqfour@gmail.com, I’d like to have someone to talk to if you don’t mind. I tried to tell one of my friends but he just got pissed because he didn’t want to hear about my problems. He’s entertaining but not so good with the emotional stuff.
Edit- My email got screwed up, it is now freezinginfire@gmail.com.
Hey man. I around the same age and if you need any one to talk to you can contact me through my email. I don’t feel comfortable psting it on this site but i’ll email it to you if you want.
Sure, if anyone is willing to email and say who you are on this site, then I want to talk. Just send me an email. The only issue is I can only check my email every other day or so. I have to use a better computer.