pathetic but true

I’m like you, i can’t cause physical pain to myself anymore, something prevents from doing it, and i think it’s knowing that if i get hurt like i did before, i will feel even worse because i’ll want to feel well again.
I attempted an overdose like that too and it made me feel a failure.
Do you have someone near you to make you feel good whenever you need? Because you should share your pain with a true friend, if you can.
Don’t let your nights be quiet, leave the tv on, or turn on the radio, leave a light on, look outside, talk to a neighbour, walk the dog, call a friend, try to distract yourself as you can. How can i help?

I recently had to chose i wouldn’t burden other people with my problems and that just made me be completly alone again, without someone to talk to everyday.
Nobody else should carry my weight, but i really am alone.
If you have people around you who depend on you and care for you, you can share your problems with them, and spread the burden until it turns to receiving help and feeling better.
You can’t wait for it all to go away, it won’t work. Just don’t let yourself become worse, or you’ll end up feeling useless and lost like me.
If you have people around, don’t be alone, ok? 🙂