I don’t think anyone knows the battle you have with your own mind. Day in and day out. Then the people who set you off yell at you and blame you as if it not their fault. Frankly if you set anyone off and blame them they will get mad. So why blame it on the person who is already upset with daily living.
Frankly one day i will have enough courage to kill myself. The thought of leaving the world and the pain and suffering actually makes me more excited for death to come. To think that i will not be in pain anymore. I will not feel this way anymore. It is the only think i have looking forward too.
No one knows the stuggle it is to wake up everyday with the feelings of dispair and loss. and emotional pain. your heart literally aches every day. And the sad part is i have been feeling this way for over 8 years.
Maybe today will be the say i have enough courage to finally take away my pain.
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Dear, I am so sorry for everything you’ve been through. I’m here to hear you. Tell me, do you know how it started? When did it start to feel that your life was falling apart, and why? I want to hear everything. Don’t spare the details (unless you don’t feel comfortable to talk).
“It is the only think i have looking forward too.”
You’re going to die no matter what. It is inevitable. One day it will eventually happen.
And then you’ll be dead, forever. Since you have forever to be dead, there is no reason to rush into it. Either way, you’re best day being dead is not going to be nearly as interesting as your worst day alive.
“No one knows the stuggle it is to wake up everyday with the feelings of dispair and loss. and emotional pain. ”
You’d be surprised. Many people do. You dont know what’s going on behind the eyes of other people. Someone you may think has it all together might also be spending every night laying awake with anxiety. Trust me, a whole lot of people feel like you do. Be careful not to compare your blopper reel with other peoples’ highlight reel
I can’t imagine dealing with this for eight years….Eight long miserable years of feeling the way I feel now is scary. I understand how you feel….I too look forward to the day I leave this world….sadly that is the ONLY thing I look forward to…everything else no longer matters to me anymore
You’ll be saying the same thing years from now. Nothing changes except our thoughts of suicide and this life. And the only way to cope is by just dealing with it. Suicide doesn’t make a difference in my mind.