ok so first and foremost im going to tell you a little story about my life.when i was in my elementary years i was being bullied by everyone i always feel like nobody loves me and i know it’s not just a feeling i know that is real.everyone said that i stink i have body odor,bad breath and a loser and other stuffs that can hurt my feelings i was always so emotional way back my youth and now that i am 17 i am contemplating about my childhood,reminiscing that eventually i figured out that i never really had one.and now that i’ve grown it’s hard for me to trust someone,it’s hard for me to socialize with others,i am now addicted to drugs(in some way) just to relieve the pain that I had in my past.i really don’t know how to express myself anymore.i mean this world is so demanding that you can’t keep up with its standards anymore i feel like this world,this world is hell for some and for others this is heaven but i just can’t figure out why it’s meant to be like that.why does someone need to suffer so someone can be happy?sometimes im thinking that if i could only take all negative energy and negative vibes and pain and sufferings of this world and just explode,i would do it i would definitely do it for everyone’s happiness.For everyone’s inner peace
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I felt the same way when I was about your age. I was the butt of everybody’s jokes and I felt like I never had a childhood. But as I got older, people grew up and I started to figure life out and things got better. Hope you have better days ahead of you 🙂
It’s extremely hard but try not to think about your past. Pursue your education, find something to focus on and put your energy into that. You do not want to wake up ten years from now and realize you spent a good majority of your life thinking about your past or about how fucked up the world is.
You can be happy but it’ll take time and you need to focus on something to get your mind off of the rest of the world.
Ok so foremost no one can help you. Except you. I mean yeah hell we can give you a stick and pull you out of the quicksand but you need to want it and need to help yourself.
Then I think, well we all know chinese ying and yang so that make sense to me. It’s the ultimate balance in the world.
But hey. You don’t need to explode. Take all the negative vibes and turn them into super good ones.