All too much

I am chronically depressed and suicidal… But it’s not because I think this feeling will last forever or that there’s nothing that could change my current circumstances. It’s because I’m literally running out of energy and resources to do the things to help myself. Plus I can’t seem to think up something that I want aside from love and belonging and who wants a depressed person?!?!
If you relate to this, maybe you could try what i’ve done before you give up searching for an alternative relief;
– Book medical appointments (health checks, pills to ease the immediate pain, strategies to get to a happier place permanently).
– Get human touch (as long as its consensual, the more hugs, kisses, massages, sex, etc the better).
– Let yourself do nothing.
– Ask anyone and everyone for help (the worst thy can do is say no).

Aside from that… When all else fails, I’m trying to discover a way to suffocate myself in my sleep without the possibility of surviving with brain trauma!!!