I dont know how or why im still alive. I have no use here. Im a stupid worthless piece of shit and noone cares. Im never good enough for anyone. NEVER! and i never will be. because ill always be who i am and i cant change that. but i can change whether im here or not. I dont understand how ive held on this long. Its crazy, all the crap i put up with. But then again, here i go being selfish. There are people who put up with alot more. i dont have it that bad, im just a whiny selfish baby. thats all. im worthless, ugly, fat, horrible, bipolar, a complete wreck, antisocial. Im mjust nothing.
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Whats the underlying issue to why you feel so negative about yourself?
Maybe your here but theres still a driving force behind all the self loathing that still wants you to live and succeed. You still have a tiny sliver of hope. Why, because you truly do not want to die but just want the pain to end and gain back control over your life.
You say your no good for anyone else… but maybe you should live life in your definition and for you. Dont live life to please and feel accepted by another. Dont let another judge who you are and let them deem if your worthy or not. Live life for you. Do what makes you happy. Find the things in life that will benefit you and give you confidence. Everyone’s life has great value in this planet, including yours. There is nothing wrong with being selfish and acting in regards to ones own autonomy.
Everyone has a use on this planet. You just have to find it. Do not doubt yourself. Im am pretty sure your a beautiful, valuable and wonderful individual ready to bloom but has just suffered immeasurable oppression and abuse to truly and confidently allow yourself to shine.
Your not a whiny baby. Your in pain and just need someone to understand and help. There is nothing wrong with nor should you feel ashamed to call for help. We are all human. We have breaking points and we can only take so much. You shouldnt compare your pain to another’s because everyone suffers differently.
Im here to if you need someone to talk to and help you. Always remeber though, you have been given the ability to make choices.
Take care.
I honestly cant judge your character very well, since I don’t know you, but what I read in your post is: “here i go being selfish”
That’s great! Well, not the fact that you’re selfish, but the fact that you realize it. Most selfish people think they are the most generous and selfless beings no earth. So you already took the hardest step, next thing on the list will be to get rid of the selfishness. Again, I don’t know whether that is a hard task for you because I don’t know you, but I know it is possible.