I’ve cut myself off from almost everyone. Nothing has really happened for me to feel so drained and lost. I can’t tell anyone how I really feel. I think about ending everyday. I’ve fooled the best of them denying my thoughts of self harm. Yeah it’s a permanent solution I just want out. Anyone that looks at my life wonders wat the fuck I’ve got to complain about I have a man that is wonderful he’s domestic he certainly doesn’t need me or my negativity. I just want out no one can help me. I’m in cairns Australia I have no friends no one I […]
February 2014
So i’ve started hurting myself again in my sneaky way
all pain
no lasting scars
But now it doesn’t seem like enough and I don’t know what to do
I want my emotions to go away so i don’t do anything drastic, but ugh it’s just so confusing
So i guess that was the rant  for today
hello everyone
so i am only 14 years old, in the 9th grade
my anxiety, depression and depersonalization disorder is getting out of hand; mother took me out of public school so i can get home schooled.
the problem is, is that we haven’t gotten anything down. we can’t find any of the right websites to help, and we’re both a little lost. my mother and father found it like we HAD to get me out of public school because how it reacts on my anxiety, depression and D.D. which i do not regret, public school was hell but my mental health has not changed one bit.
i feel […]
I graduated from college and have a Bachelors of Science. I thought more doors would be opened for me but now ten month since graduation… this does not seem so.
I held a position in manufacturing 6 months after graduate just to make some money but did not take long for me to feel dissatisfied, unaccomplished, and severely depressed. I woke each morning feeling unmotivated, miserably, and wondering why I cannot launch my career. I had no problem quitting the job. The job put me to sleep (literally), the pay sucked, the hours was pitiful, no one appreciate the volunteered overtime and… most importantly, I want to dedicate […]
maybe I can’t, maybe I don’t want to, but the cutting isn’t going to stop this time. not after today
“I swear I hear your voice, it’s driving me insane”
Some days are better than others. My bad days though, they shatter me. On my bad days it feels like somebody has opened up my chest, taken a handful of my heart, and ripped it out. Some days I don’t miss him, but when I do, my entire being misses him. He wasn’t just my boyfriend, he was my best friend. I know.. how cliche right? Well it’s the truth. He knew how to handle me at my worst, he loved me unconditionally and wiped away all of my tears. He took it when I screamed […]
So I went for my weekly visit to speak to my psychiatrist, and did he ever have the greatest advice ever….
“What’s the rush in dying, we all die anyways”
Thoughts? Anyone and everyone who has ever been told that or felt like this, please respond.
My mind is still trying to wrap itself from figuring out what I am supposed to do with that oh so helpful quote.
Suicide on prom night anyone? Lol
Would you come to my funeral? What thoughts would go through your head as you gazed at my cold, pale body? Would you feel bad about everything that you did? Would you miss me, years later when you’re married and have a family of your own, would you even remember my name? Would you cry for me? Do you miss me at all? Is there ever a piece of you that wishes you hadn’t made the decision to cut me out, freeze me out of your life? Will my name ever drift into your mind, years from now? Will you even know why?
I am so close to having every thing I ever truly wanted, so why do I still want to kill my self….why am I rejecting life
i’m like the expired never opened bottle of milk standing in the back of the fridge and soon i will meet my demise
What do you do when you feel like you have no way out of your hell? Â My life is miserable. Â I wish I could just off myself and end things, but then all my years of struggle and suffering would have been for nothing. Â No, I am not a young teen with a possibility of a real future. Â I am not young anymore and I am not physically healthy anymore. Â I regret that I did not do it decades ago when I was 7 and life was hell (I was abused) and really had the mind to end my life back then.
I just […]
I don’t understand
I say when you walked away
I thought you cared
I say when you turned your back on me
Why?
I ask when you don’t turn around
What did I do so bad to make you leave?
I yell when you have walked away
I love you
I whisper
But you never and won’t ever love me
I sit down and cry
You were there for me when no one else was
I am completely shocked
Wish you were here
I sigh and pick myself up
But you never were
I cut one more time
You were never really there
Hello.
I will be around for the next hour if anyone wants to talk. I don’t mind what it is, I just want to listen and advise. No judgement.
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I will refresh page every 5 mins.
I don’t have any magic solution or words of wisdom to save anyone.
All I know is I wanted to die. And now I want to live. It is possible. please don’t forget that.
SA
Lonely
The word that will describe her forever
It’s carved into her mind
It’s carved into her wrists
Unwanted
By people
By guys
 By family
Makes this person slit a vein
Used by
The guy she loved
The guy who hurt her
The guy who lied
The guy who taught her how to fly
Suicide
Was what ended her life
Suicide is an ugly word. I just read an article about how assisted suicide is legal in Switzerland and they allow for dignity in the process. Switzerland gets it. After reading this article it came to me that we are Peace Seekers. This is usually what we are seeking.
My life has sucked since a young age. I’ve cut since I was 11. that sucks. my dad always brought me down and my mom said i was a mistake. Every night I hear them scream at each other. My sisters and brother hate me and arent afraid to say it. Im bisexual and have homophobic parents i can never tell. i have 3 attempts but none have worked obviously. i need it to work..i can take my dads gun once i find the courage too. nobody cares..i really want this.
Hey.
I’m 23, trans, and recently diagnosed with thoracic and a rare cervical scoliosis. It’s not so extreme that it’s noticeable with clothes on but, in a way, that makes it worse. Without clothes it’s fairly easy to spot if you know what you’re looking for. I’ve known about the asymmetries for years, but I didn’t realise they were part of a  bigger problem, just “bad posture”. My parents never noticed it because I hid it (secretly I was ashamed of it). Everytime I brought it up with my parents they’d tell me “stop slouching over the computer” or “stop carrying heavy bags”–implying that I was […]