I fucked up again, this girl emily (who i like) cut her wrist open again and i was the cause of it. I got drunk last night and told her she was just like my ex and that she didn’t a shit what she does to people and then she told “Meris. Before I go, you forgot where you met me. you met me at my worst but i covered it so well. i’m lying in a pool of my own blood and all i want to do is thank you for reminding me why i tried the first time”  I told her from the beginning, i would tear  her up, that i would just hurt her and look, what i have done.  i always do this, if i feel pain…i react with anger and honesty. I told her how i was really feeling …and look, what i’ve done….now i feel like shit. i don’t know if she’s okay but i’m hoping she is …
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Damn, that’s an intense story. Don’t let someone’s decision to end their life fall on your shoulders. That is their decision, and you are not responsible for how they behave.
It seems like you attract crazy girls. Be careful when you pick the next one mate!
I mean, ..what happened was…i was drunk and she knows i like her and she would say she likes me too and flirt with me but go around talk about this other guy and it always hurt me…and finally, i got drunk last night and told her to stop flirting me and all that…and now that happened and now…it’s my fault 🙁
Are you a boy or a girl?
girl
She’ll be right. The question is; will you be? I remember talking with you from before and…you’re a special girl from what I gather so I must give props to this other girl for going forward and being with you to begin with. She has no one to blame but herself for allowing the words/actions of another to dictate her course of action, it’s rather unfair for her to say that as you’d established from the start that you would possibly hurt her anyway. By accepting this (from the start) she acknowledged what she was getting HERSELF into, therefore voiding any right to place the blame on another.
Go check up on her, see if she requires assistance or y’know…go be a friend to her and provide some reassurance. I hope she’s okay too, but I’m more concerned as to how you’ll fair after this.
She’s a mess. Let her resolve her own issues. Help if you can, but move on from this psycho, she’ll put your head in a box
see, we weren’t dating. it’s just ..i liked her and she was someone who like to move around. and i just got drunk and fucked up. i …told her, i just hurt people,….this is exactly why i feel…i don’t need to be around…i just hurt people and when i try to warn them, they don’t listen and so i just avoid people all together. I ..ugh.
i just want her to be okay, …i just feel guilty and know this isexactly why i don’t need to be here
We all get drunk from time to time and I sure as hell have said a lot of things I later came to regret. You gave ample warning…what else is to be expected of you, lest you avoid contact with others entirely? Well, I’m sure she’ll be okay but check on her nonetheless. I live with an enormous amount of guilt, yet I still prevail and I know you can too. We just need to accept it for what it is; past transgressions that are now a part of each step we take in our day to day life.
but this is why i don’t need to be here. this is why i dont need to be alive. i’m just going to continue hurting people
And so will I, but if they’re as tough as I know they are, then they’ll deal with it and be okay at the end of the day. Because really we’re only hurting ourselves, so if the people we hurt can find resilience, then so can we.
true.
Don’t you worry, if she knows you like her, she will forgive you, because that is how a actual friend would handle it
Just tell her what really happened