All or none?

If I’m in your situation, I’ll just settle for ‘none’. Having nothing won’t hurt me as long as I put in my mind not to expect better things to come. I’m actually also a suicidal person though I have that ‘ALL’. I have ‘my family’, ‘friends’ and I do go to school. But being with them sometimes makes me uncomfortable and such. My family do abused me: name it, they’ve done it to me with an exception of sexual abuse. I wanted to have that ‘none’ for I know that having it means I still could earn something. Having none means, I could still make decisions for my self making it all right. I’ve been wanting to have that none for I want to internalize how does being lonely feel and If I could really survive being one and then I’ll think of loving myself first before anything else because we couldn’t be dependent to the people around us forever. I, We, need to stand on my, Our, foot first and look for the way where my, Our, life are leading US on. I need to stand on my feet and seek for the path where I could found my true me, and you could also do it. Maybe in that way, you and I will meet the right person while on our walking to that path. We need to find ourselves first before settling on a decision that will make us like POOF: Gone. Suit yourself while I suit mine. We still need to find the right path. Good Luck and God Bless you Buddy.