Im kinda hesitant in posting this… I was raped by my father when I was 7 years old. I still remember the blood that was everywhere after he finished his thrill… What kinda person does that to his little girl, over and over again? I am now 25 years old. and I cant seem to get over this… I literally feel like screaming all the time. I am trapped inside an adult body. All I can ever think about is suicide. I dont want to live with the memories of something so horrible.
My dad was a crackhead. He’d allow his drunk/ high GROWN men to invade me, so that he could get his fix.
I feel like my life is ruin because of him, like I can never be truly happy because my heart was broken beyond repair at such a year age.
Noone understand my immaturity. No one understand why I dont take the time to try to look pretty. Broken things are not pretty, nor will they ever be…
Someone, help me . Please.
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Im new to this site and Im not sure how to kik people. What does that mean? and how do I?
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As much as it feels otherwise, you do not need to be afraid. And above all, please remember it was not your fault in any way. You may not feel like it will do any good but you are a victim of a heinous crime and your well-being for the rest of your life depends upon justice being served. There are many organizations that can help you through counseling as well as help you decide a course of action. Please, please do not allow yourself to fall into complacency and try to live with this for the rest of your life. My ex wife and two of my four kids were victimized by her brother and I really understand how frightening it can be to take action after all this time but for your sake please do not let this go unfettered any longer. Start by contacting your local Social Services or even Child protective Services. Someone else has control over your life and you need to take that control back and develop a support system of trustworthy and truly loving people. You can get through this by taking action. Please don’t wait any longer.