im tired

Im just tired of everything everyone hates me except 2-3 people my family hate me my mom always calls me names and my brother and sister told that next time i try to kill myself i shouldnt tell anyone so i actually die and maybe theyre right i think about it a lot and i realise everyone in my life would be better without me im just a weordo who cant even talk to people i cant even talker to my counsilors and psychiatrists maybe its my time to go and finally give them what they want besides my life has been hell so far and people say it will get better but it wont….not in this country….not with these people i just wish i knew someone outside of ireland who i could live with but im 17 i know that wont happen ill probably never leave here so ill just end it now and save myself from more pain