no option left but suicide

I have become determined to prove myself and make others stop treating me like i dont matter.Im going to try a more serious attempt and gods will be done.I thought i had a reason for doing it but i dont.Apart of me says good riddance to this god awful planet apart of me says one more chance.Im getting older ill be twenty two in september.My sister will be off having a life in college.all my brothers and sisters will have left me.my parents will be dead ill be lost and confused I hate people who cry about boyfriends and girlfriends on here.i want to commit suicide cause he doesnt love me.Well at least you had love at some point.at least you were beautiful enough to be chosen.I was never chosen and never will be.I will die love less and alone.I will not have the career i wanted.or the child i wanted to birth.i will not travel,no college.Nothing cause i can not get pass my want to die.But ive accepted that it may be my fate,Ill regret afterwards but i cant stop.Im like an addict in need of a vien to shoot his heroin.Some of you people need to come off here and go seek help cause you havent tried youve just given up cause its easy.im a person involved in therapy and getting help but its not working.maybe thats me feeling sorry but its also true.im on meds so im sane saying all this,theres no loophole no way that i can see so off i go on another adventure of suicide is an option and i hate it