So I finally thought I had a reason to keep living. I thought I was going to be finally happy again in my life that I hadn’t felt in years. I thought it was good again. I finally fixed things with the girl and the love of my life. But like always I fuck everything up in my life and make things bad again. So now being back down again I find out I have to have a heart ultrasound done cuz I might have a thick heart or something like that. And if I have anything wrong with my heart I can’t do the job I am pursuing and I am wasting time and money on my 4 years of college. I really am about to just give up
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That’s good you didn’t give up yet
have you ever read about self-development ??
It may help you to get better
and if it’s okay with you I want you to tell me what’s the reason of living you found !
hmm there’s something I believe in about being sick
try it if you are interested
it says that if you do charity to some one in need it may be a reason In healing… just try it
and the effect would be stronger if you gave one of your favorite things
even if you feed cat it count as charity
try it 🙂
you won’t lose too much I mean you lost the reason of your living
I hope you good health and happiness
and I hope things get better with your love
what’s your major ! BTW
Hey thanks for the replay. And one reason I haven’t given up yet is cuz that girl the love of my life. I am trying so hard to fix things with her and she is truly what is keeping me going. I am scared that I won’t be able to do what I want to do the rest of my life. And it sucks. And I am going for my bachelors degree in fire science.
I think you need to find another reason to live for
your major sounds interesting it’s the first time I know there is such major
Have you told the girl that she is what keeping you going !
don’t be scared dreams and goals is things you can change any time
I’ve always wanted to be business women for 5 years I can’t imagine any thing in the future but me as sucessful business women
and few weeks ago I’ve been inspired by Korean drama called dr.stranger there is a scene when the main character did mouth to mouth resuscitation after that scene I really wanted to be a good doctor and I will try my everything to be good doctor if I can’t then I will go back to plan A successful business women who build hospitals ..
the point is you can find inspiration everywhere
I think I will read more about your major ^^
Hey thanks for the lost and I wish I would have saw this sooner before what I did last night thanks
What have you done ! (?_?)