So I posted a few night ago about my situation and now I feel worse. I stood up to my bf and he admitted to me that he was no longer in love with me anymore after 2 months of hiding it from me. And I knew something was wrong and he kept calling me crazy. And I’ve been depressed for so long now I’m sitting at home locked in my room staring at a bottle of pills wondering if I should swallow them or not. And it’s not because of my now ex bf. It’s because I’ve had so many fucked up things in my past. I’m a child of rape, molestation, neglect and abuse. And when I thought my life was finally starting to come together and I thought I was going to bring meaning to my life I get this shit. Idk what to do. My life has fallen apart for the last time.