every single time someone looked me in the eyes and asked me why I couldn’t do it, I would tell them it was because of you. I couldn’t imagine putting you through that. I never wanted you to have to worry about me. I was suppose to take care of you, I was suppose to be the one burying you, in many, many years. but here I am, the rope already tied. I’m going to use the chair I’m sitting on, it’s from the kitchen table I hope you don’t mind.
don’t blame yourself because you did everything you could. and please don’t mourn because we know I don’t deserve it. I know you said it was selfish, and I know you may hate me for awhile, but know I love you with all my heart. and every single time you look in to the sky, I’ll be looking down on you. I’ll never stop protecting you.
I tried so hard, and I fought for so long but the demons won.
tell daddy to be strong
ill tell grandma you say hi.
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You put a lot of blame on yourself for everything and that you’re the one who has to take care of everyone. Give yourself some room, lighten up, untie that rope. Let the demons bother someone else for a change.