Psychological BS

So more psychological BS by someone who’s intentionally trying to screw around with my life….. I’m kind of over it and it’s pathetic that no one can state what’s going on….. kind of a pathetic world we live in, but I shouldn’t be intentionally forced out of an industry of or towns or of anywhere…… but that’s seems to be what’s happening because some people are really really screwed up….God help them…. and in the meantime I’ll hold enough faith that things work out for my personal situation spending and hour and half on a bridge is never a good thing – but it’s my NOT wanting attention that actually made me step down, I realized how public it would be but maybe because of what I am going through that’s the way to go….. a lot of my problem is privacy invasion….. between cops, management and everywhere in between I just laughed in my face – just leave me alone….. when I do I will….. that’s the best way to put it….. I don’t necessarily know all the rules of Karma, but I’ve been hoping for awhile between that and God something kicks in because this unimaginably inhumane….   There’s so much to be grateful for…. but it’s so difficult when just about EVERYONE is fucking around with your life – what’s real what’s not? What’s part of this evil set up and what’s not…. very difficult to trust anyone, which makes it very difficult to enjoy relationships (because they’re probably fake or just using me for their own selfish gain under the circumstances) I’d like to be wrong…. but it’s damn world of hurt – and I’m a pathetic looser and a whinny ***** and nothing and weak because I actually took the time to post this…. I am sure when I go out into public I will be harassed with such information….