Others have no idea how long it takes . . . And how much energy it takes to be what I used it call “functionally depressed” …. Go it work, smile , socially appropriate responses …. And then wonder why I have to go it bed right after my son does because I am D-O-N – E .. All the energy is spent . . . . Just to get up the next day to get through it again . . . I want to stop .
This is the 4th day I have come to this site and I was trying to rationalize my own confusion and question as a suicide survivor. It never crossed my mind that SP would be the place to give me the acceptance and relief I needed. How I’ve learned my pain can be others strength is truly healing and empowering for my mental and emotional recovery. Often the posts that I read are like reading my own thoughts and I no longer feel so alone. Through this site I have had such a grand response to the advice, acceptance and understanding that I have decided to do outreach for suicide, depression, alcohol/drug addiction and abuse. Things I carried as scars but never thought for a second would five me the ability to relate and guide others. No one I have met thus far in my life has ever been able to come close to relating to my whole lives worth of uncountable issues and terrors so I could never find the help I needed. God eventually showed me to here and laid it upon my heart with the realization that I could possibly be able to save another with just my story and advice on how to find the tiny white dot on a black wall and see that the dot was stronger than all the darkness because it stood against all the odds by itself and could endure.
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Others have no idea how long it takes . . . And how much energy it takes to be what I used it call “functionally depressed” …. Go it work, smile , socially appropriate responses …. And then wonder why I have to go it bed right after my son does because I am D-O-N – E .. All the energy is spent . . . . Just to get up the next day to get through it again . . . I want to stop .
this was quite touching and emotional for me. Like many here as you mentioned, i feel the same way..
This is the 4th day I have come to this site and I was trying to rationalize my own confusion and question as a suicide survivor. It never crossed my mind that SP would be the place to give me the acceptance and relief I needed. How I’ve learned my pain can be others strength is truly healing and empowering for my mental and emotional recovery. Often the posts that I read are like reading my own thoughts and I no longer feel so alone. Through this site I have had such a grand response to the advice, acceptance and understanding that I have decided to do outreach for suicide, depression, alcohol/drug addiction and abuse. Things I carried as scars but never thought for a second would five me the ability to relate and guide others. No one I have met thus far in my life has ever been able to come close to relating to my whole lives worth of uncountable issues and terrors so I could never find the help I needed. God eventually showed me to here and laid it upon my heart with the realization that I could possibly be able to save another with just my story and advice on how to find the tiny white dot on a black wall and see that the dot was stronger than all the darkness because it stood against all the odds by itself and could endure.
@astal
God showed you this place full of whiny emos, pedos, retards and dumbasses? doesn’t sound like a very good god, you should fire him
There was no mention of god..
…just saying
Oops…your comments was directed @asta.. My bad! lol