I’m a 28 year old Canadian male and drawing a blank on what to do with the rest of my life. I have a high school diploma, full-time job with 8 years of experience(sorting mail and making photocopies), perfect sized apartment in an upscale neighborhood and got a bargain on rent price, no women/children/pets/infirmed family to worry about except for my 14 year old brother who I tutor 3 times a week. My friends all live within 20 minutes and I see them 3-4 times a month.
I can’t think of anything else that I want, so why bother going on? I could get a girlfriend, but I’ve no desire for talking and kissing. Whenever I’ve gotten together with someone, I’d get bored real quick after sex becomes a permanent fixture in the relationship. I don’t much care for intercourse because it’s boring and messy and the whole act (foreplay+penetration+cuddling) is way too time consuming.
A better job might stimulate my mind and bank account, but do I really want to be doing more work to earn more money that’s just going to sit collecting dust in my bank account? I only ever spend my money on video games, and I’ve stopped buying those because I’ve got a 100+ game backlog that I need to work through first. I don’t care about seeing the world and experiencing foreign cultures up close, so traveling is out.
What else is there for a cynical asshole to do on this planet? What should I be working towards? I’m so horribly depressed about all the hypothetical time that I have left because I don’t know what to fill it with. I don’t want a wife, kids, house, money, objects, trophy’s, memories.. nothing really matters to me.
Do what makes me happy perhaps? But I already spend my Saturday and Sunday’s asleep. Ugh, so sad.
3 comments
Do you actually enjoy spending time with your friends and brother or is that just an obligation to you?
a different job does not necessarily mean working harder or making more money but something more creative could be better for you if you are sick of the monotony.
Try doing something to help out people who are less fortunate. that would make you feel good bout yourself and there are many people who need help. Look for volunteer organization.
there is always omething to accomplish have you ever thought of getting involvedin something creative like music or film or something like that.