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September 2014

cant take this anymore young artist and businessman age 21

by iamgone 9/9/2014

written by iamgone

it all started when i was 11 my dad passed away, after living a rich life my family lost all there money and we lived in poverty.

my mother has bipolar and after my dad passed away she spent all of the money on things we did not need.

I fell in love with a girl at age 15 and her parents hated my guts because my family is not rich and they are, because i loved the girl so much i tried my best to become a young successful entreprenuar so i opened up a little cell phone shop to prove to her parents that i […]

9/9/2014 6 comments

Tonight.

by ImSoTired 9/9/2014

written by ImSoTired

Ending it today. Bye everyone.

9/9/2014 11 comments

Depressed badly

by lissbabe 9/9/2014

written by lissbabe

When you just wanna go back to being that girl you are but you have to hide, well I wanna I just want to go to my room and cut my arms and feel better but how the fuck will that work all that’s gonna happen is for parents to get pissed off and kick me out but I’m not that perfect daughter not anymore now I’m different and in a girl who has to put on a fake smile and be faking happiness but nobody accepts me for who I am please tell me how to get out this hole again

9/9/2014 2 comments

My End is Near

by SeasOfBlue 9/9/2014

written by SeasOfBlue

I don’t know how much longer I can live.

I’ll give you all a final update when I end it.

All I can say is thank you to everyone on this site for an amazing experience.

9/9/2014 12 comments

meaning

by namelessghost 9/9/2014

written by namelessghost

It’s been a long time coming and many failed attempts are piled up amidst the endlessly towering walls I’ve built up. Not everything I do fails. Not everyone I meet I make unhappy. But enough do that it might as well be everyone and everything.

I don’t want to hold on. I do so for others and fuck, I have tried. I moved, moved again, got a new job, adjusted meds, started therapy. The thoughts– fantasies, perhaps- of my demise never find a chance to subside.

I’ve been depressed since I was 10. Abusive and oppressive household and general faulty wiring to blame. This turned into severe […]

9/9/2014 11 comments

The Irony of Work Progression

by depressednihilist95 9/9/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I find it ironic how wealthy and successful people can be so depressed, yet society acts as if humanity is advancing for the better by replacing human connections with emotionless machines and business practices. Seriously, there are people working on sex robots because they’re so tired of being raped by humanity.

9/9/2014 2 comments

The Circle of Life

by StarsShineInDarkness 9/9/2014

written by StarsShineInDarkness

The weight on your chest never ends.

He is the beginning,

He is the weight,

Physically crushing,

The pain follows,

Heavier than he was.

The black hole in your chest,

Ripping your insides apart.

The cuts are the closer,

The release and the cause simultaneously,

The blood runs,

You get one true breath in,

The weight returns

You know its not the end,

Tomorrow he will be there.

He will find you.

The weight will never end

9/9/2014 1 comment

Newbie

by StarsShineInDarkness 9/9/2014

written by StarsShineInDarkness

I am not a newbie when it comes to depression, or anxiety, or suicide. But I am when it comes to talking about it. Why do people have to judge and make it so hard? They are allowed to have broken bones, so why are we not allowed to have broken minds?

9/9/2014 3 comments

I Am Nothing

by aeroghost 9/9/2014

written by aeroghost

I’m done. Had all I can take. No one understands how mentally destroyed I am..

I haven’t smiled in weeks…. Maybe months

I just can’t take it. It feels like my heart is literally ripping itself apart.

I don’t care if I’ll regret this decision, I JUST WANT OUT..

I’m sorry…

this is my end..

9/9/2014 2 comments

First post.

by jac 9/9/2014

written by jac

First post here, or in public at all about how I’m really feeling…

I’ve been depressed and suicidal for years. Been on lots of different meds, admitted and discharged a few times with no improvements, and a few failed suicide attempts too. I’m at a point where I’m seriously looking for something effective, but hopefully not leave a gruesome scene – I don’t want family to find my body hanging when getting home from work or for some poor sod having to pick up pieces of me quickly to keep busy commuters happy…

9/9/2014 3 comments

it has to happen

by infectedpooks 9/9/2014

written by infectedpooks

i truly think tonight is the night. the pain ends tonight.

9/9/2014 2 comments

Greatest Fear

by Tegretol 9/9/2014

written by Tegretol

My son asked me one day what my greatest fear was. I couldnt respond. I was unsure. Usually ones greatest fear is linked to death in one way or another. I do not fear death. After a few months of thinking about it, i have come to the conclusion that my greatest fear is existing in this redundant way of life forever.

9/9/2014 1 comment

I’m really done this time

by lovemyshihtzu 9/9/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

gotta wait for my package then after Saturday four days off so shouldn’t have interruptions unless my stupid parents decide to send me to the stupid hospital. then i have to wait a few weeks till my dad goes in vacation I’ll use his garage. I hate ryans stupid dad he took away the one thing I had that ever made me happy and brain washed him and made him crazy. the only thing I have are my cats and I can’t even take care of them because I’m crazy. I’m stuck here all alone because his stupid dad took him from me I have […]

9/9/2014 20 comments

uhm okay?

by notsurehey 9/9/2014

written by notsurehey

I just told my mother that I didn’t feel like eating at all today (it’s 5:25pm where I am) and her response: ‘oh ok.. I’m gna go have supper’ …..
When did this become the norm?

9/9/2014 7 comments

Missing.

by fairmount 9/9/2014

written by fairmount

It took me a long time to get to this place. Don’t we all want to be clean? I know i did. I didn’t want to live with the hidden cuts, the physical heaviness of my chest, a head so foggy i could barely grasp my own thoughts. I didn’t want to look after every one around me just to make sure no one tried to look after me. I wanted to be my own person. Look after myself. Fix myself. Be a normal person. Live happy. happy. happy. happy.It was infuriating. Cut to be happy. Cut because i’m not happy. Could i please die […]

9/9/2014 2 comments

question

by notsurehey 9/9/2014

written by notsurehey

Can somebody who is depressed “make an effort to try to be happy again”?
Even if it’s really difficult and I’m done pretending

9/9/2014 6 comments

It’ll take an act of congress – update — The real bullies

by Strahd 9/9/2014

written by Strahd

So, nothing has really changed since my original post of the same name. I have been taking college, mainly for personal than for getting a career since I am pretty much unemployable. As of recent I told my mom when I got out of the military that I was going to eat myself to death, and 8 years later, a month ago my doctor told me that what I am eating is killing me. So perhaps a self fulfilling prophecy? So about the bullying well, for example college won’t do me any good, because society likes to kick people when they are down, if you […]

9/9/2014 2 comments

We’re all parasites

by depressednihilist95 9/9/2014

written by depressednihilist95

My problems are so small. I could hear people complain about One Direction breaking up, but no sympathy for innocent children benign killed over in the Middle East. Plus, it looks like a royal vagina just couldn’t keep itself shut again. The world sure could use another child! I fucking hate this planet.

9/9/2014 3 comments

Close Call

by webhead 9/9/2014

written by webhead

I just registered here to have somewhere to share. Tonight was a close call. Extremely close. It made me realize I need help badly, but I have nowhere to turn but the internet, so here I am.

It all started a little over a year ago. My landlord handed me an eviction notice because I was 3 months behind on rent. Then he handed my wife a note telling her about how it was all my fault. We were already having marital problems, mostly because of the financial hardships we’d landed in, and that just made it worse.

We managed to find a crappy little trailer to […]

9/9/2014 5 comments

the pain wont stop coming back

by infectedpooks 9/9/2014

written by infectedpooks

i kept myself extremely busy and productive today to take my mind off of everything. it worked pretty well too. i went to my college and attended my two classes for today. i got a lot of homework done for my courses, took care of the remaining things for financial aid, etc. i felt like i accomplished a lot today, i was even a little proud of myself, until night time arrived….

whats the point of any of it? why am i still trying? im absolutely miserable with myself. the only person who could make this better is the person who shattered my fucking heart. i […]

9/9/2014 2 comments

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