Your mind is responding…… It’s saying your sick of life, you have no direction and feel like you have no purpose. Your a kind sweet loveable person that I would probably get along with, but your mind also tells me you haven’t had the best past memories. We’ll my mind is speaking as we’ll, it’s saying I want to help you and many others as we’ll, but I feel alone and thinking alone by myself might make me crazy, I might feel like this forvever, we’ll not really because I want you to know that the answer to all your problems lies with your first move, my request to you is to followe Jesus in the righteous path of the man. Do you know that Jesus died on the cross for our sins? Not for us to die for our own. Ask forgiveness an The Lord shall forgive, accept him into your heart as I have done and we will one day rejoice memories with him 🙂