I’m afraid

Strictly going by the post you kind sound obsessed or just overly infatuted over her. If your as dramatic when expressing yourself to her it’s easy to see how it might drive her away. If she is the only thing in your life with any value, then you have nothing to offer her because she already has herself. You may “love” her but thats not enough by a longshot. You need to be a person of value instead of a person dependent on others values if you want her to even consider. Desperation, obsession, and dependence are all very off putting unattractive traits. I probably have no clue what I’m talking about, and obviously don’t know anything about you or your life. Just trying to help. I’m not saying you are inadequate or unlikeable or a bad person. I think you should spend time away from her and focus on learning to appreciate other things, as well as learning to put others wants and needs ahead of your own; you may want and need her, but you obviously arent providing what she wants and needs or else you would be together. Best of luck to you. Stay safe, for real though. Don’t ever do some dumb shit like hurt or kill yourself over a *****, because there’s a million others and I gaurantee that you will be just as in “love” with the next one that laughs at your jokes, or has a cute smile, or whatever attracts you to her. I’ll end with a quote, ” Im heartbroke but I’m still loc, man, fuck a *****.”- Snoop dogg.