Mh.. I want to share this now..
Life has no meaning, it’s only a shitty story with a happy start. Im jealous that i’ll never see the things like the other happy people do.
It’s a shame that I cant do something right… The only thing i ever wanted was to do something right.. That the people i love the most would be proud of me..but.i guess that’ll never happen.
My mom was never proud of me and she never will.
But im over it now.
The people i love will die. And i’ll die too.
Live isn’t for everyone.
Live isn’t for me.
This live is just sad. Thats my opinion. Everything i’ve done and i’ve seen is just sad.
Today i was sad.
Yesterday i was sad.
Tomorrow i’ll be sad.
And this is pretty sad.
If you look long enough on things. Then you’re able to see the sad in anything .
Most people think it’s worse but i think its great.
If i cant be happy , why should i see good things in live?
I’ve attempted suicide 7 times.
And i still want to die..
My friends leaved me.
Everyone leaved me.
Thats it.
No one will stay beside you.
Everyone will leaven. This is live.
And live is sad.
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I can’t give my myself what my human instincts want. I have been sad for my entire life, feeling anything other than depressed, feels unnatural to me.
I have never and will never experience the normal things that other people do. All I have are my fantasies and even they turn on me. There is no safe bastion, there is no hope of joy or escape. My little world of myself becomes smaller and smaller.
I will say this darkness_within: I have never experienced being “left” by anyone since I have never ‘had’ anyone. This has remained a constant through out my life.
“Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all”, I think this quote depends on prospective but I would have liked to at least experienced the former at least once…
If you look for sadness then you will find it. Try looking for happiness instead. Maybe don’t say you will be sad tomorrow. Try saying I will try to do something tomorrow that will make me smile. You can’t rely 100% on other people to make you happy. They are only part of the equation.