So hey I’m new here so please don’t judge me with what I post.
I’ve had suicidal thoughts since sixth grade. I’m now in tenth. I’ve kept telling myself to not worry that it will get better. That’s only a lie though. It’s gotten way worse. Especially high school. This past year I’ve made mistakes and I’ve trusted the wrong people. I was bullied on Ask.fm because of it. It got so bad that I wouldn’t get out of bed. I just cried all day. Every time I get a notification from it I jump. I’m scared to death that it’s going to be hate or something. I also lost a really close friend and I did. I miss her like crazy but I know I shouldn’t. She turned against me and spread so many lies. I’m almost positive I’m the school whore. I don’t know how much more I can take. I’ve been cutting since sixth grade as well. But it’s like every time I try to stop I end up getting a new bad habit. It’s just I know cutting isn’t doing me any good and I need to stop. I just don’t know how. It’s like I’ve gotten addicted to it. It’s like a drug. So if anyone has any advice, please help.. It would be extremely appreciated.
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Some people can be cruel, hold on. As far as cutting addiction goes, try putting ice or something really cold on yourself to get a little numbness. ive put a hot mug filled with hot coffee on my arm to feel a slight burning sensation. Best wishes.
People honestly suck. And thank you for the suggestion..
I know how you feel, ive been cutting since 7th grade. I was turned on by a friend and she began to spread lies as well.. she did it about a bed relationship i just got out of.. it sucks. i know. as far as the cutting goes, im looking for ways to stop myself.
That’s what happened with me. Except she just constantly called me a whore and a slut for no reason
You may very well have gotten addicted to cutting. The way it was explained to me was when someone cuts their brain releases a chemical that is a lot like cocaine.
Sometimes it’s very hard to resist. I know. It seems like most people use a razor blade. I used my hunting knife. It inflicted more pain & damage. Most of the time I never felt any pain when I cut. My brain could shut it down. It was a distraction to the emotional pain I was going through.
I can’t tell you how to stop. I’ve stopped for now, but there are many times I’m fighting the urge.
See a counselor.