dear sp, i just wanted to come and give an update on my current situation. things have been really sucky and i cannot seem to get ahead. the days are not bad cause i have places i can go, and things i can do. i am able to get on sp from our workforce computer but not at the librarey. they block it for some reason. its been two weeks now sleeping in the car in a walmart parking lot, and it is taking a serious toll on me. tanked really bad yesterday, and was not any better this morning. had decided to return the car to my ex with my dead body inside of it. the magic of the universe prevents me from doing that. as is our usual custom, i set monday as my target date. wow. what a diffrence a few minutes can make. some small opportunities occured today that provides a little bit of hope, and then a HUGE one occured. a friend from this site that i havent talked to in a while popped up on my screen. its real hard not to break down and cry. the timing was amazing. reminded me that, yea, their is still magic out their. gave me enough ooomph to keep going just a little bit longer. i have noticed that their are a lot of new folks on here that i dont know. all i can offer you is to keep trying. push a little longer, and a little harder. i dont know if it can get better cause i aint their yet, i know it doesnt get any worse than where we are at. to all of my friends here that know me, please know i dodged another close one. your help and words have carried through once again.i love all of you more than words van express. to you new folks searching for answers, keep coming back, keep trying,and listen to what these folks tell you. we have been their done that, and keep trying not to do it again. i wish i could be on more, but my access to computers is limited. especially on weekends and holidays. i really hate both at the present moment cause it halts any progress i might make. oh well, thats the way it is i guess.anyway, just wanted to let all of you know im still around, at least for a little longer anyway,and will keep you posted on any progress that is made. much love to all, and may we all find that peace which we seek.
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hugs tc. Wishing I could make this better for you somehow. You are in my thoughts. I cant even offer advice, not even in the same country as you so I have no idea what resources might be there for homeless vets. This is so wrong 🙁
I am so sorry with what has happened tc, please believe that things can get better, as Whispers has said, it’s so wrong. I don’t want to say too much, but a country that spends money on defence should make sure its citizens/veterans are well cared for and not left like this, are there any resources that are available to you. Thankfully you have some help from the vets association, thankfully they are there for you. Again, I’m sorry, I will be thinking of you, please take care of yourself tc.
I’m sorry things have been so rough. Hugs to you and here’s to hoping things start to look up for you soon. Your post was beautiful and so true. I can’t promise things will get any better or easier either, but keep pushing on!! I know I haven’t really talked to you before, but you’ll be in my thoughts during this rough time of yours.
I’m very sorry things haven’t been well. My best wishes are with you. Take good care.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)
tc <3 Remember what I told you. xoxo
I’m reminded of you whenever I look at my boots and especially when I wear them — having the Eagle, Globe and Anchor embossed on the side of them says that these boots are for the heartiest of souls; the Marines who don’t actually die, but go to Hell and Regroup. There’s a reason the Krauts called y’all “tefelhunden”, because y’all really are devil dogs; but the good kind, who kick arse and take names because that’s what needs to be done.
Semper fi, TC… Semper fi.
I have no idea why your VA department isn’t looking after you, but there is/were a few other vets on here in your AO who could possibly provide support if that’s what you need to get your case dealt with. I feel pretty fuckin’ stupid since I’d never served overseas but still receive financial and medical support from the army; yet here you are struggling and the VA isn’t doing shit. >:-(
Regardless, keep your head high, Marine! Never forget your friends here on SP, because we sure as hell will NOT forget you. And yes — I know that historically the Marine Corps don’t get along with the Army, but hell… we can make an exception in our case.
Stay war-ry, brother.
love this, Shep.
just chatted w/ tc, he’s doing ok, he’s come out of the bad slump a little bit for the moment, and has a few job prospects hopefully lined up. Keep him in your prayers and thoughts, gang. I know KNOW he’s gonna pull out of this and do great things. He’s getting there.
hey, folks. thankyou, all of you. im getting by ok now. have a couple of opportunities im working. the hard part is nights and weekends. im about a foot longer than my car is wide, so i end up stiff and sore.some good things are starting to happen and just need to keep pushing through. which im am doing. i am not eligable for much from the va, nor would i accept much of their help anyway. their are too many of our young troops who need their help much worse than i do and deserve it more. they did a lot more than i did when i was in. these kids are old enough to be my grandkids and its painful to see them with their wounds and mental scars. shep, i was air force, but trained and worked with the jarheads for several years. love a damn good jarhead. i got along better with them than i did my own branch. i am allowed to use semper fi,because of past duties with them. i use it for all veterans of any branch, cause if you served, i am always faithful. us taking care of us. dont matter what branch,we played the game and did our time. this dedication extends to all of you for the help and support you have provided me during this time. if it was not for all of you….so people do not not worry, i still slogging ahead with my face to the enemy, and will do what i can do today. you are all in my thoughts and go with me wherever i go, and whatever i do.i will keep you informed on any and all progress or failures. i love all of you so much, and want us all to find that peace and happiness we all deserve.one request, please hug and kiss your pets and critters for me. i miss my little tai chi so much.she took care of me when no one else was their. she is in a better place than i can provide, but it still hurts. she was a damn good cat. anyway, onward and forward and i will talk to yall soon. love and peace folks