Update on Friendships

Hi again.

Today was pretty stressful, as are most days. I feel like I’m writing to a diary but people are actually commenting, so that makes me feel a little better about it. In the last post I used initials for the people’s names in case they find this and try and do something about it. My ex-best friend are out for blood, and it’s not their own.

Basically, my friend T is actually my friend, but I found it out a little later on. This morning she was hugging one of my friends and I walked up to her and she walked straight past me like I wasn’t even there. She sat at a full table, away from me and our mutual friend. I just decided to ignore it. Our teacher is all about peace circles so we took our chairs from the indoors and went out to the cold. When we went outside, my friend called her over and she went. She completely ignored me and decided to sit next to someone completely away from me.

The next period I decided to sit next to someone neutral and she didn’t seem to mind. Basically we didn’t talk. We didn’t hang out at lunch like we usually do. It was all just awkward. Fast forward to 5th period and we all have a class discussion. I started to mess with the teacher as usual and some how she ended up noticing my post on Instagram. She mentioned me for the first time all day and started to talk to me.

“So you’re not mad at me?” I asked her, completely stunned at how she responded to me, after all the hard work she put into to keep from even looking at me during the first few hours. She replied with, “No, but…why would you think that?” I explained why and she just explained that she had told our friend that she wasn’t mad at me. Actions speak louder than words.

After all of that we started to hang out in 6th period, which is PE. We sat down and talked about the three day weekend and actually chated like nothing truly happened. I guess nothing did and I’m overanalyzing it but I think something was up.

What I honestly believe is she was mad, for some stupid reason, and decided she wanted to cut me out. If she wasn’t mad she would’ve replied to my texts, one of which said “do you still want to be friends?”, and I didn’t get a reply. I think she was mad over something and then saw how her life was without me. I know I am a crazy girl who is loud and I was very loud in 5th, as usual. I think she missed me and decided to play the ‘I wasn’t avoiding you’ card. I don’t really care.

To top off all the drama, a girl who used to despise me last year is back. She just annoys the crap out of me. She was hanging out with G, T and J. All of my ex-friends and even T was hanging with her. This girl talks so much crap and I am a bit scared of having to deal with her wrath as well.

Anyways, life is okay for the most part. Nothing really major going on. Tomorrow I will post about Expressions, explaining what is going on with that at my school. For now I shall leave and work on homework or something. Leave a comment and give your opinion on what happened. Thanks for reading.