I feel so fucking ashamed that for a second foolish time I could believe it was actually worth something to someone!!! I knew from day fucking 1 when you said how you felt that it was a lie, but me being the stupid fucking ***** I am trusted and believed you.. You and all these other people are nothing but lies. That’s all everything ever is!! LIES!! I know I’m worth nothing, I knew I was never worth your time or anyone else’s.. I wish that you’d just admit it. Just once, admit that I am worthless and that I never meant a damn thing to you and I’ll never mean a fucking thing to anyone else. I wish you’d admit that you want me to be laying in a ditch rotting right now!!! Why am I so fucking stupid to believe everyone’s fucking bull shit?! I might as well rot in a ditch somewhere seeing sense I know that nothing will ever be true. It’s all lies!!!!! I hope you see this and I hope you figure out some day how you completely destroyed me for good… I was broken and in a horrid place before but now I am nothing!! Live happy..
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If only there was a way for me to tell u how I feel and know what’s going on
I know the truth in it all
Sure think what u want
I know I am an idiot but do you think I’m really that stupid to let you convince me that I actually was something “significant” and good in your life?! I know I’m a fuck up! I know I’m not worth ANYTHING! I’m tired of my mind convincing me it’s possible for me to be worth someone’s time.. From now on I’m just going to say FUCK everything!! Fuck it all!!! I literally am in awe of everything.. You can blame me all you want for it all idc anymore.. I know I’ve made my mistakes but you’ve made some as well.. Live a happy life.. I really wish nothing but the best.. Thanks for showing me the real side of life again and how I’ll never be or amount to shit!!!
Ok think whatever u want. And if u can’t see it then yes fuck it all.
If it means as much as you claim maybe you should put out a little effort to try and say what you need to say in small talk..
Do u know its been a month and I have no idea of what’s going on. If u think I didn’t care or think these things of U how about u think ” why is he on here still looking to see if I say anything?”
What are you talking about?
If you cared like you claim then you’d realize we both made mistakes.. You just want to blame me.. I told you if I left shit would get even more fucked up.. You never listened to me though.. You even said you asked if it was ok… Apparently that was a lie too …
If you cared like you claim then you’d realize we both made mistakes.. You just want to blame me.. I told you if I left shit would get even more fucked up.. You never listened to me though.. You even said you asked if it was ok… Apparently that was a lie too …
K whatever u say then.
Memories.. It’s all about the memories
It’s all a lie to u so y save them as memories
Maybe because they remind me of a time where I once felt somewhat normal… Until I figured out I’m like a bad disease and fuck everything up.. I know it’s easy for you to dumb them off but not me
Well to me none of that has changed. But u think otherwise
All I need is to know that no matter how far we drift we can always some how reconnect and be friends… That’s it.. I just want to know that this is one thing thing I haven’t fucked up.. I wan to know for once I’m not a disappointment
I’m sorry I got you in trouble I knew you’d get in trouble you should’ve listened to me
And if I cared I would have listened to U but I dont
So you don’t care about anything at all now?.. That’s nice..
Omg Ur miss reading that
Okay well I’m not sure what to say anymore.. All I want is for you to tell me if friendship means anything to you
Yes friendship does
Just be up front and atleast tell me what’s going on
Maybe when it feels safer…. It’d be nice to have the same back but I know things are probably fine and dandy… I’m so broken and I don’t even know if I should care anymore… I feel like I need to just disconnect from everyone and everything and just take whatever is handed.. All the bull shit fucking things that happen are clearly karma for something I’ve done.. I guess karma for all the fuck ups I made in life..
Well I would really like to know. But to me Ur not a fuck up
I just want you to know still.. No matter what.. Even though everything’s fucked up and I’m a shitty individual your memories will always be with me. I never take off the necklace you have to me.. Sometimes I just hold it so tight and all the bad times you helped me through flash through my mind and because of everything being the way it turned out to be I want to rip it off and toss it as far as I can or burn it but I don’t and I won’t because it’s the only thing I feel like I still have left of our friendship
So where r u?