Why do people have to be so heart less this is the second post i have put on hers and i really dont know why im telling everyone my problens because i hate taliking to people my x left me back in September because i wasnt the person i used to be after i got hurt and i found she had been cheating on me for awhile and im in constant pain i live on pain killers and other meds for my heart rate and blood pressure they say its because of the pain and i admit im not the same person im tirectired all the time i cant sleep i never feel like eating but i make myself and i lost everything my house everything ive worked for my x and i was together for 20 years and she just up and leaves and i found out shrshe has us thousands and thousands of dollars in dept and that she stole our kids money that we had put back for them in cds and bonds and that she stole all my grand mothers money she had my x on her account so she could help her pay her bills and instead she did something else wIth the money and some of my aunts and uncles had to help pay my grandmothers bills that were behind and she way over charging my sister i had electric bill in my name for my sister and she wad just giving the money to my wife and we found out she wad telling sister it was like 300 when it was really only like 90 and she wasnt even paying the bill every mOnth she even stole money from her mom and dad i let them move into my grandmothers house after she passed and she was overcharging them for the gas and electric i just cant seem to see a light at the end of the tunnel anymore its like the lsst 20 years of my life was a lie and a joke and i feel like i lost a big part of myself and cant get it back i just want to crallcrawl into bed and never get up i love my kids so verymuch and i dont wsnt to hurt them but im so tired But there mom wont have much to do with them anymore my son called me uoset and crying because he said his mom didnt want him anymore i told him i loved him and was vrvery proud of him and i was sorry i just dont have it in me anymore i dont know how to be happy Anymore Sorrh frfor rambling on you guys probably dont want to hear all if this i just dont know what to do
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You are not alone. My ex also left me around September (can you believe almost 7 months?). In reality, things got bad around July, almost a year.
When things were bad I tried lortab, it never helped. While we never had children together, I feel our animals together were as such. One day she just up and left. I was clueless, I still to this day have not seen or heard from them
Put a smile on your kids face, I wish I still could.
We are here, take me up on my “An Offer”.
We will listen.
Thank you its just iM lost i dont knoe what to do sometimes it feels like walls are closing in on me and never useD to be this wsy but Its like a paice of me is dead and More of me is dying everyday my world is so dark i hurt all the time and im on the strongest pain meds there are and i hate even getting up in the morning because i know its going to be a bad day and im going to have a panic attack at least 2 or 3 times it seems like everything sets me of anymore and i hate for my kids to see this way they try to help my son comes to see everyday on his lunch and after he gets of work because he is worried about me sometimes it feels like they would be better off with out me im so proud fo them and i love them so much and i dont want to hurt them i just dont knke what to do
I’m sorry you were taken for such a long and heartless ride. I think people will take advantage given half the chance. The thing is not to give them that chance in the first place. Not everyone is the same though. There’s good and bad in the world. I think most people will take advantage of allowed to though… It’s like human nature or something. Take me for example- I took advantage of my ex emotionally manipulated him to get my way all the time. It wasn’t even what I wanted. I hated our relationship as who wants a puppet on a string!? Especially when the puppet master has no idea of how to make the puppet dance. Unfortunately my puppet became entangled in his strings and was very unhappy. Even then he wouldn’t leave me… I had to be the one to break it off. Because in his mind he loved me. Although I don’t believe he knew what love was. Anyway the point of the story is… I never wanted that sort of relationship, in fact I wanted the opposite- however when I pushed and he just gave in -I had no choice but to go with it. It wasn’t a conscious decision and I was young. Amazingly 5 years after our split we are still talking. I think largely to do with the fact I didn’t ask him for a penny. Money really does damage relationships. Most people value it so highly. I value happiness and peace of mind above it all.
All I can say is be strong there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel and I believe in karma very much one day she’ll get what she deserves