I’ve been smoking cigarettes since I was in grade 7. Yep, that’s right, a 13 year old kid, smoking cigarettes. Now, I am in grade 9, and as much as I try to quit, I never can. I can’t get myself to not crave cigarettes anymore.
I always had thought that they would slowly kill me, but I guess they didn’t. They affect the way I do some things, like singing, or running – but they haven’t killed me yet.
Addiction is a hard thing to get over. Even now as I am writing this, my body is craving a cigarette. I know I need to quit- that’s the thing, I just can’t will myself to do it. To put down the pack and the lighter and walk away. I’ve tried, but I always fail.
I’m a failure with things like that. I can never let things go, for I hold onto them until it kills me mentally and physically.
I’m addicted to things like that. Like cigarettes, and the feeling of being alone.
I’m addicted to pain. Not that I so much crave it, or need it, it’s just sometimes that I need to make myself bleed to see if I’m still alive. To see if i’m living anymore, because sometimes, I feel like I’m not.
I crave to see my own blood, and I can’t help it.
I crave cigarettes that maybe one day are going to kill me.
I can’t let go of this stupid addiction.
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You hate being addicted to cigarettes, while I hate the fact that I can’t get addicted to cigarettes, no matter how much I forcibly smoke. I hate the smell, taste and aroma of the cigarettes, but I still force myself to smoking. I can smoke 6-7 cigarettes per day and even that is too much sometimes, i get extremely dizzy from nicotine,
The reason I force myself to smoke is to shorten my lifespan. I don’t want to be live anymore, but I don’t want to commit suicide either because of my religious views.
I cannot get addicted too, no matter how much I try.
I used to smoke at the age of 15 to impress girls, after I got a girlfriend I immediately stopped after she asked for it.
Alcohol, cigarettes, pot… I don’t know I often see people addicted to these things in this website, but it’s nearly impossible for me to get addicted.
I don’t know if it’s a bless or not, who knows?
Oh btw, I was addicted to games, so I think that everyone has some kind of addiction.
I use to take those addicting anti-psychotic medicines and withdrawal was always a ***** (excuse me.) So I can understand how trying to break free from an addiction is hard, especially cigarettes. You’re not failure you just have to keep trying, slowly cutting down is the only way.
Depression can truly make you feel numb, so I understand using pain to feel something. Maybe focusing on something more positive that gives you a good feeling will give you a break from the numbness. Self-harm only causes more pain, been there done that.
Perhaps you need someone to help you stop, breaking addictions alone is very hard. I mean, do you buy the cigarettes yourself or does someone else buy them for you? If someone buys them for you maybe you need to have a talk with that person, perhaps break free from them.
Terrible ,
I started smoking in 2nd grade I am now in my 50s, I smoke 3 packs a day, I’ve quit two times, the longest was 6 months, I wish I didn’t enjoy it but I do, I’ve sang all my life, I get better and better with time, I do feel the effects from smoking, it’s a bad habit, I am from a different generation than you, it has gotten harder and harder because it’s becoming a problem with other people more and more everyday, can’t smoke here! blah blah! soooooo! lets visit this situation shall we?
Q.) how do you quit something you enjoy? and why?
A.) be cause it cost money to smoke! it kills you! lung cancer! you taste like an ash tray!
BLAH BLAH BLAH!
OK! TRUE! But you are going to die of something I guarantee that! that’s what us humans do! I say enjoy your time on this planet, do the things you enjoy doing, I mean after all where does it stop? don’t eat meat! don’t breath the air! don’t listen to this music? run 50 miles a day! eat this don’t eat that! and on and on! I smoke because I like it, now if it’s your desire to live as long as you can, then listen to all these health fanatics , I myself want to live and enjoy my life doing the things I want to do, I’d rather live 70 years doing everything I enjoy than living 90 years not doing anything I like to do, Quality not quantity, that’s me, it’s a ***** when you die as we are going to do, gee he never smoke but his heart gave out! or this or that! you will die! guaranteed, am I trying to convince to keep smoking NO! but don’t be ashamed of doing what you enjoy doing, if you truly want to quit you will, if you don’t that doesn’t mean you a failed, you can give up everything you enjoy but your still going to die.
I smoke over 2000 cigarettes a day. I have been doing this for about 15 years. One day, I will smoke 4000 cigarettes a day. That’s my ultimate goal.
It’s weird. Every time I hear an anti-smoking ad or see an anti-smoking billboard I automatically light up a cigarette. Can’t fight the urge to smoke when they demonize tobacco like that. I blame the anti-smoking propaganda machine for getting me addicted.
I blame the delicious taste of tobacco, personally.
Haha.
Man, 2000 cigarettes a day. 20 cigarettes in a pack, 2,000 ÷ 20 = 100, $9 a pack in New Jersey, so that’s a $900/day habit.
If you’re awake 18 hours a day, 18 X 60 = 1,080 minutes. That means you’d need to smoke about two cigarettes per minute for 18 hours straight.
Methinks thou doth jest.
I should quit smoking. Yeah, but I don’t. I’m about a half a pack a day. More if I’m drinking.