I am so done with this world. I don’t want to commit suicide. I just want to die. Every single day I imagine myself getting run over by a truck or suddenly acquiring a terminal disease. I think of those people with cancer or aids and think that they don’t deserve that. There are lots of people who want to die, why not give them the cancer or something. I think I’m depressed and I tried telling my mom once. She told me “You’re not depressed.” Then she gave me a chocolate milkbox. I told my sister that I may be depressed and she’s the only one who might have believed me. She supported me and asked me if I wanted her to tell mom but I already told mom once and I told her no. She dropped it after that. I’ve been wanting to die since I was 12 years old. I’m 18 now, turning 19 and I just want to let go. I’m so sick of this world of betrayal and anger. I don’t want to live in a world where instead of helping people achieve their dreams, they get stepped on. I don’t want to live in a world of greed anymore. I think I need therapy or something but I don’t know how to get one when my mother won’t even believe me. I just want to die.
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Truthfully, I’m sick of falling short, of failing too, but hope is still clinging to me for some reason. I’m not even a teen (I’m 12) and I’m already having these thoughts. You’ve made it past my stage. I think that’s you should keep on going until you fail. Think of it this way- since your life is a wreck there’s no point in ending it when you can let it continue just in case it might make a turn towards the better.
Since 15, I’m now 25 and I remember a soul never believed me. People never really understand.
Hi, I can understand your problems. I’m 23 and me too, always wanted for an accident or disease to die. But nothing of that sort happened. So lets just accept we are invincible and move on to live, okay?
Try to make your mom understand your problems, tell her about your need to die. Tell her you need help from psychiatrist may be she would help you then. If she still says you are not depressed, just tell her you have to see a psychiatrist and be adamant.
You are too young and I don’t think you deserve to be depressed or die.
There are many ways to overcome depression. You need to talk about your problems with some one,other than your family or relative. Make sure that person won’t use those against you.
Be always busy, be active every minute.
You understood the negative and wrong aspects of this world so try not be greedy or selfish.
I hope that you will overcome depression.
Happy Living…………..