I’m 27 years old, and at the age of 25, I was living the dream. Great career, awesome woman, finances in check, nice car, and nice house. Life for me was starting to settle down. Life took a turn around when I was betrayed by the love of my life. In the span of two years and up to this day, I am sitting with zero dollars to my name. I lost my career due to tardiness, as I couldn’t sleep due to the devastation that took over my mind after the betrayal. Because of that, I lost my car, and my house. Only option was to move in with my parents, which soon after my mom filed for divorce after 26 years of marriage. Since then I have lost the relationship with my mother, as she started dating an alcoholic before the divorce was even final. My dad, devastated, has been an emotional wreck. My new temporary job wasn’t enough to pay the bills that I was stuck with when I had an awesome job that I lost, so my credit is beyond horrible. I turned to alcohol and within 6 months ended with 2 DUI’s. I have pending court dates, and they are not looking too promising. The love of my life has been toying with my emotions ever since, which has not allowed me to move on, and now I feel that I can’t. My future seems non-existant, and I feel as if I am below rock bottom. I am a great guy with an enormous heart, and I feel like I am being punished by God for something. I am emotionally lost, and do not know where to start. My mind is always racing. It’s just too much to bare. I’ve contemplated suicide, came close to doing so, but have yet done it. I would love to hear how others would cope in a situation like this.
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If you are below rock bottom then the is only one way you can go.
Focus on the small things you have control of. Don’t expect too much, build your confidence up slowly and get back to where you know you can be.
You are not looking for anything unrealistic as you have been there before. You can be there again.
Cut the ties to people who cause you pain and be a bit selfish in focusing on your needs for a while.
Talk to someone, call one of these helplines. They won’t tell you what to do but sometimes when we talk about a problem and say it out loud the weight of that problem becomes less and less.
“Cut the ties to people who cause you pain and be a bit selfish in focusing on your needs for a while.”
Amen to Horse. I think healing can only begin after the fresh wounds stop. If people are adding to your misery, whether deliberately or incidentally (like trying to help in all the wrong ways), then opt out of their influence.
As for the money troubles, that is a monster. I’ve been there (I am there), having fallen from a place of comfort into a sewer by comparison. I’ve been reading about a spate of young investment banker suicides this month, guys who had it all but the stress got to them, they turned to alcohol or drugs and thus begins the fatal fall. There has to be a way to pull out of it.
I think the key is to stop beating yourself up about it. If you’ve ever seen an anthill after a storm, they just get right to work rebuilding. Clear out the dead, bring in new sand & start over. If you find time some day, look for an anthill and watch the little bastards go, I’m serious, it helps 🙂
Hey man im going threw the same thing we should can sometime or email maybe we could help each other out