society

i knew it. The only reason that the doctors didnt know what they were talking about was because they were doctors that treat poor people. The really good doctors know what they are talking about, but they require insurance and money. I deal with a caseworker, and she is a very judgemental person. She thinks i cant find a job cause im crazy or something. No, the reason i cant find a job is because i was the only person in my family to go to college, and i didnt realize what to do in college to get a great job. I didnt network and meet people who could open doors. But what did i know? I come from an area where most people end up in jail, or stuck in a terrible job with horrible pay,and never go to college. So, all the people in my neighborhood resent me, and people from nice areas think i didnt try hard enough in school, or didnt meet the right people, or think im just crazy. This is ridicoulous. I come from a one parent household, and it wasnt easy. People judge off what they think is the truth, and it is ridicoulouls. Poor environments are so negative overall, and it is horrible. Nice environments are great, as long as you know what will help you, or you are connected to the “right crowd.” The only difference between someone in a great job with great health, and someone in a poor job, or in prison, is coming from a good home with powerful connections, or coming from a terrible living situation with crime and poverty and hopelessness everywhere. I go to certain environments, and everyone is totally toxic. People are treated like criminals for no reason, and there are very few oppurtunities, no health care, little hope. I go to other environments, and you are treated well as long as you look like you belong there. It is sad and ridiculous. I hate how society is. I want to live a good life, but society is telling me that im not able to do that, unless i make the right connections. And the right connections are telling me they cant help me. I get it, im not important enough. That means i have poor doctors, poor healthcare, little hope, and i have to deal with issues like crime, poverty, bad health, and possible homelessness. They paint me with the picture of being mentally ill or lazy or a troublemaker. I am neither lazy, mentally ill, nor a troublemaker. I only know this stuff because i have seen many sides of society. I am so angry, whatever happened to affordable healthcare and the American dream of moving up in the world? /rant.