This is my second post on here. My first was a rant about my life. I just need a friend! Oh my god! I’m so sick of being lonely all the time. If I really pushed myself, I could get a job, stop being homeless, blah blah blah… but for what reason? I have nobody. Nobody cares. I cut myself, burn myself, drink to the point I pass out, and and I fucking hate myself so much.
I threw everything away and sacrificed college for a family that pushed me away. I lost my friends to my depression. I’ve tried replacing them with self harm and alcohol. It’s not working. Please somebody help. I need somebody to talk to. I almost killed myself tonight. I almost jumped off a damn bridge. I’m tired of being alone. I have no motivation because I have no friends. I’m 21 years old. I have no family. No friends. No purpose. No money. No job. No education. I’m a useless loser that needs to become yet another victim of natural selection. The world would be better off without me. I’m a stain to the gene pool.
All I do is stay up all night drowning in my own miserable self pity. I won’t get into details about myself because fuck it, I don’t care anymore. I just need a friend.. I live in northern Cali if anybody is interested in hitting up… I don’t even care if get myself killed by some stranger. I hate my life.