I have a heart disease since 2012 my life changed since I went to doctor. I love foot ball but he told me that I mustn’t touch a ball anymore or do any sports that exhaust me because I will die so after that I watched my friends do every thing they want except me. I accept that but in 2014 days passes and I cant sleep it was painful my heart very hurting me until now. I completed my high school this year. but my friends hate me they don’t say but they don’t want me to go out with them and when I told them that I need to talk they say not today we are busy tomorrow maybe and it goes like that. but I have a friend who were with me since we were kids 14 years of friendship but now he just like them today he told me to go in another college and leave him alone I asked him why you are the only one I have you are my brother why you leave me now at the middle of the rode he said that I am different and I will die soon the university is waste of your time and he said let me live my life I want to have fun you are an alien from the space cant do what mans do so I start crying in 19 age and I cried in front of him and told him that I want to live like anybody I want to have fun to enjoy my time he said you cant because you different and if you came to my university I will be sad and in the same time I will be worried about your health so the best answer is to stay at your home because I cant carry your shit any more. I really hate my self why I am like this why no one want to stand with me because I am sick ? I want to die better than this life my girlfriend knew that I have a heart disease so she told me if we married our children will be sad because you will die in a young age sorry I have to leave you and she gone.
why I am living the best thing is to die I cant handle my pain I have a disease no one can help me OK fine why my friends let me down I think happiness is the biggest lie just for live a good life but I don’t want to live anymore all of my friend say is true my place is not with the living I don’t deserve my life its hell not a life everything is wrong in my life so I don’t want it I wish I can end it now
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Well you surely have a difficult situation here to deal with at such young age. I don’t even know what to tell you. Unfortunately life is not fair to everybody and you got dealt a bad hand with this heart condition. Dealing with the pain it causes you is certainly rough. Is there another doctor you could go see for a second opinion?? With all the technology in medicine and surgery I would think that there should be somebody that could help you in some way. As for your friends ad so forth bailing out on you over this issue, I could understand that that hurts emotionally. Maybe you should look to see if there are any support groups in your area that you could attend. That way you would meet people that are going through a similar situation and you could find some comfort being able to talk about it with people who understand what your going through….and you can make friends that way who are supportive.
thats what I would do > 1) Seek out another doctors opinion 2) find a support group
Im sorry to hear you are going through this.
I wish you the best.
thanks my friend but i went 4 doctors all the same I have pills to take everyday just for lowering the pain andral and propranolol. but I dont want friends anymore they all the same my friend who were with me when I went to doctor and said to me dont lose hope this is life but now he tells me that I should be nobody because I am a unique condition and he cant carry me anymore but he is brother I know him from 14 years when we were kids he destroy all of my hope now I am really despaired of this fucken life there is no solution for me only death
I really need help I feel like I am losing my self