Just tired of life. Tired of dealing with mindless sheeple out there. Tired of the world and its empty material pursuits. Tired of faking the funk when I obviously don’t give a shit about anything anymore. I am to mentally sick to do anything meaningful with my life. I have come to terms with my fate. Tired of family that only tells me to pray to mythical men in the sky as a remedy for my depressive state. Sick and tired of all that. I am going to pop 5 lethal pesticide pills and that will be it. I have always been looking for something that will hasten my demise and I found it. I talked to my brother today and he gave me the same old bullshit that normal people peddle just because they have everything together :

” so what are you going to do?life is 10% what happens to you but 90% percent how you react.How you react shows whether your a sissie”

I know it sounds incoherent but right now I am in a manic depressive state convulsing with anger and fear. I will take a walk at the and off my self there. Fuck this Bullshit slave matrix. I do not even have the slightest motivation that can compel me to live a normal life or do anything “meaningful” with it. I have blocked out all sorts of positivity that will enslave me to life or feed my irrational attachment to it. I am done here.  Bowing out gracefully.