I’m tired

I’m tired and I have absolutely no energy. I feel like I’m slowly fading, and I’m experiencing the last chapter in this long-drawn out saga. I’ve gone through the most astounding and uplifting turnarounds in my life, but I can’t see myself recovering from this last blow. I found God after being a hard, cynical and depressed atheist, and thought that could sustain me. I got caught up in the euphoric hopes of the new age movement, and most recently I was interested in video games and the prospect of becoming an avid reader. Of course there were many inspirational nodes between those I highlighted, but you get the point. Now, all I want to do is love the animals and people in my life and help them out any way I can. The fact that I’m struggling to do this kills me inside and I can only hope that you all can find and then cherish this special feeling called love. This is an essential lesson of life and perhaps only once you learn it, can you be released of this crippling, earthly bondage.