I’m so fucking fed up with everything right now. My parents are driving me fucking crazy by being goddamn indecisive and they won’t tell me what the fuck is going on. Why do you have to play this stupid game?! Why can’t you tell me what’s going on? Why can’t you try to help me instead of putting such pointless weight on me that I can’t do anything about. Stop it. JUST STOP IT!
I’m fucking depressed enough. I’m already batshit crazy and this doesn’t fucking help. It doesn’t help that I don’t have anybody to talk to. It doesn’t help that all of this makes me feel so shitty. I wish I didn’t have to go anywhere or do anything. It’s always such a fucking mess. They don’t tell me shit and don’t help me out. They’re always so back and forth and angry with me that I feel like it’s my fault. I feel like everything is complete for two seconds and they throw it back on me and I break down again.
I don’t want to dO THIS ANYMORE. I’M TIRED. I’M TIRED OF FEELING INVALID AND I’M TIRED OF BEING TREATED LIKE SHIT AND LIKE I DON’T DO ANYTHING. I’M TIRED OF YOU TELLING ME I’M NOT FUCKING GOOD ENOUGH.
I’m tired of feeling like a complete dumbass.
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You need to let go of all this extra that your parents are putting on you. If their actions aren’t helping you then you need to dismiss their words (ya easier said than done) and walk away from the situation, even if it’s just to your room. When they act irate, you need to act calm, even if it’s just a mask, and disengage. Their problems are not yours, and no it is emphatically not your fault, and you matter plenty. At this point in your life yes they do have a fair amount of control over you, but that won’t last forever.