Hi everyone,
I fantasise about death. I think about what it would be like. I don’t believe that people go to heaven when they die, I know that once you’re dead, that’s it. I don’t want to talk to anyone, I don’t want to go anywhere. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. I can’t believe I’m thinking these thoughts. I have an amazing husband and the cutest 6 month old boy. I have no reason to think these thoughts.. Yet I’m obsessed with the idea of dying, I saw a counsellor, a psychologist and a psychiatrist, but I couldn’t open up to them properly so it was a waste of time. I struggle to understand my purpose on this earth even though I should know better. Am I messed up?
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u r not messed up…it s a depression symptom. be careful with opening up to them…u mind end up committed in the psych ward.
antids might help.
most ppl here can relate, welcome to sp;)
No, not all. You are not alone in fantasizing about death. I used to do it all the time as a teenager. The thought of not waking up to the reality I perceived was quite comforting. I just wanted everything to end. This doesn’t appear to be your case at all. You have a little boy. Imagine how devastated he’ll be to grow up without his mother. I suggest seeing a psychologist and being honest with him or her. You won’t be sent to a psychiatric unit just for describing things like wanting to die. It’s only when it seems like you’re seriously planning suicide will they send a report. Even then psychologists don’t have as much power as psychiatrists with this. You don’t seem seriously suicidal to me. You just seem confused.
GET HELP SO YOU WON’T HAVE TO FEEL THIS WAY
that is definitely not weird, I too have the same thoughts constantly, you are not alone
Nope I mentally stick a gun in my mouth a couple times a month.
funny:)
i fantasize abt being able to drink my poison.
Do you imagine how painful it will feel? I fantasize about how painful and amazing the back of my skull will feel when it shatters out, then sweet oblivion.
Not weird in the slightest.
I do it daily. Another thing is you said you had a 6 month old, did this start before you were pregnant? If not then it could be post pardem (sp?) depression.
I’ve been feeling like this for the past 7 years maybe, i go through really happy stages and then really bad ones, I sound bipolar