Once again a friend ditched me for my sister, once again I feel left out. I don’t want to be alone on New Years.. It’s happened two years in a row. I want to be with those who love me. I thought I was going to change and be more outgoing this year but I guess that hasn’t worked out well for me.. I thought I had that courage. I haven’t changed at all. When will it end?
I hope everyone else is having a good New Years. You guys diserve it.
Happy New Year!
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Make double or triple plans when it comes to new years. I remember that it was an usual thing for me to talk to friends that got ditched because their other friends went with other friends instead (jesus that sounds complicated, hope it makes sense). Lonely new years here too, but heh, i’m pretty used to it. Hope you have a good new year too, you deserve it as well (everyone does).
This is my first New Year without my husband, and it has been my first holiday season without him and it has been hell…hope you can find some comfort somehow…I am learning how to deal with the suicide…and the would’ve’s, should’ve’s, and could’ve’s… but none of them help of course…no matter what we think…the devastation it leaves for those who stay are so profound…but I’m alone..and i will be…so I know, in my case, leaving will leave no scars or pain…
Happy New Year. I’m attempting to give myself alcohol poisoning, so far so good.