I really want to kill myself. It seems like the only way I can somehow…escape the depression and anger and loathsome feelings and be happy. I was planning on overdosing but I hear that it’s very painful. Also that if I was not successful, getting your stomach pumped would too be painful. It seems like no one really ACTUALLY cares. Even people (1) I thought was my friend sorta is though he obviously doesn’t care. At least not about me he doesn’t. Death is inevitable so does it really matter when it is going to happen? I wish people wouldn’t make it or blow it up into this huge thing. I’ve got nothing to live for is what I feel like. We’re eventually going to die forgotten. Especially me. Even after death, I’ll be alone. No matter how many friends or family I may have that say they care etc., I feel like they really don’t and that I’m just going to die alone. The only thing(s) holding me back from actually finally killing myself, is leaving everything behind and not accomplishing what I wanted to. I say this assuming that anyone would mind or care…
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
4 comments
I feel your pain annonymus.
I agree with you that “It seems like no one really ACTUALLY cares”!
What did you want to accomplish before you kill yourself?
Someone always cares, sometimes it’s just hard to see it. A couple of weeks ago I felt more or less the same as you, but eventually everything just seemed to of worked its self out. I know it probably seems like a useless idea to you at the moment but writing down your feelings, what’s bothering you and what you’re grateful for helped me a lot.
i know that it feels like no one around you cares and it hurts even more b/c you want them to understand and you trust them so much. you have to find a place where you don’t feel alone and where you can feel free of pain (not talking about killing yourself). but a place where you can love being alive and know that it’s okay for your one friend & family not to understand what you’re going through completely because there are others here on this website and others you will meet in your life who will totally get you and are always going to be there for you.
i personally was so close to ending my life but like you, what i wanted to accomplish was holding me back. accomplish what you need to and it could possibly change everything.