I hate being an old ugly loser on my mom’s couch. Im such a ***** i can’t jump to my death even though its 10 minutes away. I hate being alive and stupid and lazy and suicidal for 3 decades. There is nothing to keep going for. I hate being consistently rejected and pointless. I cant keep trying. There is a reason i eat all the damn time. Its the only joy i can get from life. I don’t even have access to weed anymore. Im a fucking moron.
Edit: I keep thinking about how hopeless and pointless i am. I keep thinking how unnecessary i am. Its why i want to lose weight. Maybe I’ll be less ugly then. Maybe someone will fake care out of desperation as they usually do. So i can add another emotional scar. I’m so incompetent incomplete and income depleted. I keep thinking of everything you said especially the shit that contridicted. I dont know if I’m better for having met you or worse. Id say better because id still probably be super massive. But shit ended sooooo god awfully. I regret my role in everything I wish it all worked out. If i had a time machine id go back in time and give myself more money lol. Then it would have a better chance of working out. I trust ive already been long replaced. I will never be able to replace you. Even if you began to make me miserable from a far ill never have you again and it sickens me. I’ve only been alive for 5 days and its been numb death otherwise and that along with all of the other bs makes me suicidal. Anytime I think you are out of my head i have a dream about you. How cruel is my mind..
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You have me beat by a decade. Two decades here. I feel for you.
why don’t you focus your life on one single particular goal, it could be getting into shape or making money or anything else you aim for. Don’t just waste oxygen on this planet, be of some use to other people, go out and help poor in any way you can, go to a country where you can help people or do some good shit around you, don’t just waste your life man, at least die trying to get what you want.
why don’t you focus your life on one single particular goal, it could be getting into shape or making money or anything else you aim for. Don’t just waste oxygen on this planet, be of some use to other people, go out and help poor in any way you can.
Nonsense deadmanliving. Everybody is different… Looks, personality, and habits. No one is ugly. Somebody out there likes you, or me, or the next other million people. It’s like a guy I used to work with would always say.(hoping this is relevant) theres a job out there for everybody.