Hei! Let’s just start that I have been hospitalized basically since 16th of december( was let out beginning of march but taken in after 4 days..). I made a suicide attempt and thats how it started. They are still not sure I won’t do it again so they keep raising my antidepressants dose and keep me in hospital. But I am not depressed and actually I believe I will end with suicide anyway, regardless of my mood and wether its sooner or later. I wonder what will be done with me if I endlessly admit to being suicidal. Will I be just let out eventually cause they can’t keep me forever alive or will I be put into mentally ill care place forever?
How long have others here been to mental hospital? From what I’ve read I understand in US people are released more quickly.
I actually can’t imagine what will I do after getting out. My life was supposed to end in December. I don’t want to attempt again because of my parents but I know that even if I think in the hospital that way, temptation will be hard to resist outside.
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That’s how I feel I feel it will end that was for me to
I’m so sorry to hear that. Ive never been hospitalized in fact I should have been twice. Once was after an attempt the 2nd was after the police were called to my apartment and i admitted to cutting and attempted but they didn’t do anything.
Why not just hash out all these feelings in the relative safety of the hospital?
It just doesn’t change anything.
I agree with HDS, I mean if you’re already in, and they don’t want to let you out anyway, not much harm in trying to sort out your thoughts while you’re at it.
As far as what will happen if you keep admitting you will likely kill yourself, I don’t know for sure as it might vary by state (in the US) and the resources available, but when I was in the hospital, my roommate did just that. She told them she would kill herself if they let her out, and one day she broke down in front of me and admitted that they told her that if she kept saying that, they were going to have her committed to a state institution. Now I don’t know much about those places, like if it’s just continuous monitored care in a residential community, or if it’s more hospital like, but that’s all I know.
Personally, I feel my life will end by my own hands as well, I can’t imagine it not, nor a future where I am alive, but I hope you find something to cling to. If you like your treatment team, feel free to bounce these feelings you’re talking about now off of them, they’ve heard worse and they’ll probably call it “progress” if you start talking. Who knows, maybe it’ll even help.
I have never been to a state institution, but know someone who has. Based on their description I definitely would not want that to happen! However, the OP doesn’t seem to be in the United States.
Wow, that’s a long time to be in hospital. I was in the behavioral unit for only 3 days, but it was terrible. I convinced the staff I was ok, and released, and have been doing better, despite my life essentially falling apart as a result. But they are resources to take advantage of while there. I hope they can get you the right kind/amount of medication to help maybe change your perspective and lighten your load. But if you continue to admit being suicidal, they’ll most likely continue to keep there.
In our country if you are hospitalized it will be at least two weeks or more. You wont be out in three days. I guess our system has less pressure cause here are less people than in US.