So, I’ve mostly been coming here, just to make jokes and poke fun. Truth is, I’m losing. I have a taste of fun here, that’s all.
Fuck. Trying to think of what to say….
Wake up every day, hoping today’s the day. Hasn’t been yet.
I set my date or whatever, but, fuck plans and schedules.
I’m not concerned with being considerate in my death. Fuck em.
Always a reason. Always a hope. Always a dream.
So , when it’s time, it’s time. Probably won’t say goodbye. Not going to make a big deal. Guess it’s unfair to those here I click with. I’m sure I can be forgotten.
This place is a trip though. Some you, fuck, only time I smile all fucking day. I could go on and on here, but I don’t wanna make shit awkward. Just know I care bout you more than you could imagine.
And, so that’s where I’m at. Shit IRL too fucked up to discuss , things here I can’t say, so I just keep it all locked up. Make my varying levels of inappropriate jokes. Try not to take me too seriously.
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I hope somewhere along the line I said something that made you glad you stuck around to read it.
Really.
Of course. 99% of my contribution seems to be our little quips.
Hey man, you know I got yo back. *beats chest*
That’s a kind thing to say, but meaningless. You’re a cool dude, so I mean no offense, but you don’t have my back, my front, or my side. See, I could run this truck off the next bridge, nothing you can do. If I die tonight, or forget to pay my phone bill, it has the same effect on you. All you’ll ever know is I’m not online.
Again, I mean no harm, I enjoy our correspondence.
You are right, and you make a good point. I guess I meant that along the lines of if shit goes south and you have noone to talk to, you can always message me.
I know you didn’t mean any harm bro. Just wanted to make sure you knew.
You usually don’t bullshit with anyone here, and I appreciate that about you.
As for whether you can be “forgotten” or not, lemme just throw this out here:
There were three people I went to high school with who killed themselves.
I barely even knew them enough to call them acquaintances, let alone friends.
But what little I knew about them, I still remember, decades later. I remember their names, I remember their faces, I remember their voices.
I remember how they died. Two hung themselves, one shot himself.
If I remember that much about people I barely conversed with, I will absolutely remember you a hundred times more, despite the fact that I don’t know your name or what you look like.
How thoughtful. I guess my angle was more the wheels will keep turning. Something like that.
I appreciate the sentiments though.
I’m not sure if I qualify exactly as a regular or not since I don’t visit and post as often as the rest of you, but I find you one of the memorable posters, Alan Ominous. I like the current crowd on SP. Y’all are cool folks. So… um… just throwing it out there that here’s some random who will notice if you don’t appear on the site. 😛
I’m glad you find me amusing.
Have you ever heard the band Deadbolt? Their songs are funny. Since you were posting Bloodhound Gang tracks there’s a tune I was reminded of… https:// youtu.be/-82RwFZA0Ck
Cracks me up. (Mind you, I’m not suggesting you’re like the man in the song, ha, although you’ve probably seen guys who are.)
Alan, I want to let you know that I read all of your posts, even if I don’t comment on them. You are an important part of this forum. That is all. I don’t say that to the people on this forum enough. You matter.
I almost never post but read and you are my favourite here- don’t know what it matters but yeah maybe some ego boost. Hah.
HDS, Hallowy… I appreciate the ego boost, the horn tooting and all. It’s cool I’m thought of on some great level here. If only that transposed beyond my internet connectivity….