Lost

My world collapsed three years ago, and I had to go to a mental hospital for a month because I was clearly insane. I was obsessed by the idea of dying before my 18 th birthday. Today, I’m 19 and for nearly 6 months I almost never see a psychiatrist and even if it is still very difficult for me, I manage to take care of myself and not relying on anyone. I also lost my boyfriend and I will most likely fail my first year highschool, and members of my family died. Nothing in my life has got better, but guess what, strangely enough I did get better ! I’m still suicidal from time to time and I’m not a very happy person, but I started to accept who I was and to have a little self estime and this made my life bearable. I think that’s kind of step 1 out of it. I guess there are dozens more to travel in order to have a successful life. But still, never give up and try to be patient and gentle toward yourself.