I need some advice. The more people respond to this thread the better, please.
Some of you might recognize me and know what I’m going through, well I may have found a way out.
There’s this scholarship I can apply for that will allow me to go to Japan for a degree. I match almost all the requirements, the only thing left to do would be the knowledge test. But…
I will die next year, that’s a real fact. So what if I get the scholarship? An entire government will put their trust in me, but I will fail them and end up dying. All the resources they’ll invest on me will go to waste because I won’t even graduate.
So, is it worth the try? Maybe someone else needs that scholarship, someone that will make it until the end, graduate and be a brilliant professional. I don’t want more people to waste time in me, because I’m not worth it. I would love to get to know Japan and be away from my parents, but I will fail everyone. I don’t want to be selfish.
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You write “I will die next year, that’s a real fact”.
How do you know that you’ve got a 2017 expiration date? Have you been diagnosed with a terminal illness by a licensed, accredited physician?
If you forgo the scholarship the alternate recipient could get run over by a taxi in Tokyo within 60 minutes of landing in Japan. Take the scholarship, go to the Land of the Rising Sun and have fun. If you’re only gonna die, try and have a good time before that fateful day arrives. You only live once (unless you believe in reincarnation), so you might as well have some adventures before taking the big eternal dirt nap.
Plus sushi, just saying.
Oh my gosh, I’m so jealous! I’ve always wanted to visit Japan. You should totally go, and then write about how wonderful it is to be away in a foreign country 🙂
Take the scholarship. Don’t look back. I would.
Hey kamikada,
I am actually in Japan right now. A Japanese, in fact. But never really lived in Japan until this year for to know this country good enough. What happens to you by the next year, I cannot say anything for sure. But this one year, if coming here makes you feel better, then it’s definitely worth it. Sure, other people are looking forward to this too, but if they do not get to, they will try something else. Try living this one year the way you want to. Who knows what’s up next.
You should go for it. Anything to get away from the monsters who call themselves your parents. The experience of a foreign country is always one to remember.
Oh well said, well said.
Apply and go if you can, I say. You deserve the chance as much as anyone else does. Let us know how it goes, either way! And I also agree with those who ask why set an expiration date. Death is death no matter when it happens. If you have a shot at happiness, please don’t feel like you should pass it up.