- So I don’t really talk about this, it’s not really something I would consider talking about normally.
In the past I have attempted suicide by overdose. As you can tell it failed, but in more ways than one.
I spent the better part of a day throwing up everything in my stomach and then some blood before eventually going to the hospital. I never admitted that it was caused by an overdose so I didn’t spend anytime in a psych ward. (Idk about other hospitals but my local mental health hospital is pretty bad. They lock you in an area and provide minimum help. I feel it’s to keep you longer and milk more money, but maybe thats the paranoia.)
Now I live with an almost constant nausea/upset stomach which makes doing much of anything a hassle. I can’t eat/drink a lot of the foods that I once loved because they are too harsh on my stomach. I can’t stress enough if you’re thinking of attempting suicide by overdose, DON’T! There is no such thing as a 100% success with suicide, and in my attempts I have just ended up making my life worse.
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Yes, I also tried by OD – doesn’t work very well does it?
Most meds nowadays are so NON lethal that its nearly impossible to OD.
I woke up 3 days later in a hospital bed with a catheter inside me and thought there were fucking spiders all over the walls. Fun. smh
Paracetamol works, although it’s not pleasant.
Barbiturates with an anti-emetic of you can find them.
A big dose of heroin if you’re not a user.
“not pleasant” has to be the understatement of the century. Multiple organ failure drawn out over several days, anyone?
Lol that’s essentially my plan now, different catalyst though, much cheaper, and just as effective, but my biggest fear is it not being enough and beinkept alive on machines
I chuckled myself at Elixir’s ‘not pleasant’ comment.
I imagine Elixir saying “I set myself on fire” “It was a trifle hot and a tad uncomfortable”
I use to overdose, when I felt sad. My doctor thought that it was equivalent of cutting myself. The first time I did it to kill myself, but later I felt like my stomach was going to explode, then threw up and that was it. Other few times, I’ve overdose I only got sick. Guess I never overdosed as much as others.
I read how people were killing themselves with the old anti-depressant, so they had to make prozac. That’s how it is with medicine, once they find out that people are killing themselves with it, they pull it off the shelf, and remodel it until it’s non-lethal.
I miss the old days of when taking sleeping pills could literally do that for a person permantely.
We should all have a legal and peaceful way out.
Haha that’s a good point. Back in the old days a “sleeping pill” overdose meant the hard stuff, barbituates, pentobarbital (aka the magic N stuff we can’t get anymore). Sleeping pills today are weak. So when people read about someone like Marilyn Monroe ODing on sleeping pills and they think they can do it too, it turns out to be very disappointing. Nowadays an OD will just give you liver/kidney damage.
I know, right?!
Can you fathom waking up from that at the funny farm becoming a whole new prisoner